KaWanKu..

We were in my Uni's aquarium and i was looking at some Fish,

DUH,

What else to look at in an aquarium rite?

Hehe,

Well,

Like i said,

was looking at some fishes,

and then dear Sze ying came tugging my hand,

"Kor Kor Paulus, come come, look look!!!!"

She brought me to one of the tank and this was what i saw....

I was staring at it a while and just before i could think of anything,

Sze Ying:" Look Kor Kor Paulus, they are like Best Friends, giggle giggle giggle!!!"

I laughed and smiled not only because the way she said it was so funny,

but I totally agreed on the picture's message....

I just HAD to take a picture....

Friends, FRIENDS....

It's such a treasure and desire and NEED for all humanity....

Myself personally,

I've looked,

I've searched,

I've craved,

I've done stupid stuff,

for FRIENDS,

to be able to have them...

When i was younger,

it was like life and death...

Companionship was SUper important to me,

till a point where i could DIE...

And many times,

I admit,

that sometimes it happens to me still up to this day...

But more than quatity I look to the QUALITY of a Friendship...

To me,

I always believe friends are not just people you hang out with,

you spend time with,

you do stuff together with,

you share a common interest,

but as much as all mentioned,

is a friend that SHARES his LIFE with me...

These are friends I hold dearly,

so dearly to me...

They are the ones I really am encouraged by...

And honestly speaking,

I would not be able to move on in life without friends like these...

For the past year,

God has really been teaching me about learning to trust in Him,

and at camp,

he reminded me about how I should not be so influenzed and controlled by the desire of friends too much...

I'm learning...

BUt still,

Friends mean so much to me,

And i wont deny it...

It's just how GOd made me,

a guys who desires to

Connect,

Share,

and Go Through Life with....

I thank God for each of YOU!!!!

U tHeRe, U DaRe??

Praise God!!!
Praise Him for another camp...
This is my 7th one so far...
And till now,
I've never regretted going any one of them....
I mean,
people can say it's the same camp over and over again,
but then I always believe it's the attitude behind it,
it's how one approaches the camp...

THis year,
i thank God for the opportunity to be part of the committee...
It was hard work,
but it sure paid off...
I learnt so much,
struggled so much,
and believe that now,
I HAVE COME OUT STRONGER...
God really taught me a lot through this experience,
I was STRECTHED....

But apart from the challenge of preparing the camp this year,
God still challenged me....
He challenged me in many ways but mainly in 2 areas...

Firstly is when Pastor Daniel talked about fitting in,
about not wanting to feel rejected and by succumbing to peer pressure just so we can fit in....
He challenged all of us about how we should not cling on so tightly on the world's acceptance,
but on GOD...
HOnestly, this has been and still is one of the biggest struggles of my life...
I struggle so much to want people to accept me especially in my younger days that many times i dont realize i still do it now...
Sigh,
It's indeed a sad part of my life...
Many times even now,
I still just do things just so i can blend in with those close to me,
even though i dont really like to do those things...
BUt for this whole year,
God has been challenging me to find who i really am....
And be who He made me to be,
camp was an important reminder and confirmation on that...
As much as it is hard to overcome this,
In HIm I can DO ALL THINGS....

The second thing was when Aunty Dorcas prayed for me...
The challenge or Word for me was to bring the presence of GOd with me wherever I go,
and how do we do so?
We bring the presence of God when we learn to FEAR GOD....
My prayer is that more and more I would be able to bring God's presence whever I go to be able to usher his kingdom into places and people who are yet to be touched by HIm....

Overall,
I had loads of fun,
and it was fruitful,
apart from ministry and messages,
another thing i look forward to so much during camp is Friends,
and not just FRiends,
but Brothers and Sisters from all over the country that loves GOd....
To me,
being together with a brother or a sister in Christ just refreshes me....
Not only those from different towns,
but also those from Kluang...
It is just a relationship that gives me such goosebumps that trully is really really dear to me...
And I thank God for making new friends....
I pray we will continue to spur one another up for His Kingdom and HIS SAKE....

aBSence...

Yup, it's been a while since I've updated my blog,
Funny,
have been back over two weeks now,
and some how I cant think of anything to write...

I did mention to myself before that I wont "pressure" myself to write...
If I get something,
I write,
If not,
Dont lor....

To me blogging isn't my best thing and it isnt priority,
Hehe,
Yup,
But will see,
it has been great to be back,
and it's gonna be a great December ahead...

Oh, Lord, take me through it YOUR WAY...

wHAt wOuLD YOu DO?

HAha, i know it's kinda obvious rite?
Just finished my papers today....
WOOHOO!!!!
So i decided to catch a movie with my course mates...
We decided we wanted to watch the latest movie,
and so this was our choice...
I heard some reviews about it already from Gid,
and thought of it as just another movie to relax and enjoy the action and effects and see how Hollywood would imagine the end of the world...
I didnt expect much from the movie,
I went in expecting entertainment,
and left convicted and challenged....

This is one of the best movie's i watched this year....
It wasnt so much about the effects or the plot of the story,
nor is it the action and the excitement of the movie,
but it was the content of the movie,
the MESSAGE it brought to me personally as well as it was bringing to the world....

Personally:

One of the two things that hit me the most during the show is the love of a Father... Countless time during the show, was how the father would do everything he can, even his life to save his child.... Now come to think of it, it was so weird that they didnt show much of the mother's response... Dont get me wrong, i know the depths of a mother's love for the family and her children, but somehow, the father's of the show are highlighted so much that it led me to questioning whether that would be what i would do for my child.... One of the Father's main role in the family is to PROTECT.... That was the role so clearly seen there... I kept asking myself, can i do that too?

I've never always dreamt I would be a father, but then recently, I had this desire to be one and it was pretty strong... And today, seeing how the those father gave their whole self into protecting their family especailly their kids, made me really ponder and challenge myself to reach that level.... Because I know that before I can ever think about starting a family at all, that is a level of love I have to reach, that is a standard i have to follow, it's like GOd the Father, his love was so great, he gave his ALL, his only begotten son to die for us and like him, that is the model i desire to follow...

Can i be that father? I cant answer that, but I can say, that I am on the journey of learning to be one...

Generally:

The whole story I would sum up would be selfish love, or selfless love.... In the movie, everyone wanted to live, reality, who wants to die rite? I know selfish love sounds a bit ridiculous and impossible but i would define it as love that is shown only when you are comfortable... Such love involves loving oneself and those around that are easy.... Such love will never stand when there is trials or hardship, like the movie, love like that was shown when they found out the world was ending, there only loved or did things with love when convenient, and whenever their life was treathened, it was their own lives first before others.... Such isnt true love...

Like in 1 Corinthians 13, love is not selfish... It is selfless.... Regardless of the situation we face, love still exists and never dies if it is selfless... In the movie, everyone showed the selfish love at first but at the end, one man was convicted which led to a twist in the show where it ended with selflessness....

"The moment we stop fighting for one another, it is when we lose our humanity"...

There were a few times when i was so moved by the movie, i wanted to cry but i manage to hold back.... But after this was said, I teared... This was the CLIMAX of the story.... This was the MESSAGE of the movie... Whatever happens, Jesus set an example of true love by dying for us so that we may live...

In the bible it speaks about putting others before one self and that itself can sum up what love really is...

Like the title says, that was the question I asked myself.... What would I do if i were them? For now, I can say that most likely i would have just tried to save my own lives and the others I hold dear to me.... BUt GOd challenged me to dive deeper.... To redefine love in my life... And such love is just impossible, really impossible.....

BUt all things are possible in Christ rite???

Wow, it is a movie i encourage everyone to watch this movie...

It will really really teach you and challenge you....

kNiGht R-I-D-E-R

Oh Man,

Cant seem to get better pics of this...

Sigh, this will have to do...

Dont really do movie or show previews

(that's Gideon's job),

Haha,

Anywayz,

Have been watching Knight Rider series....

Actually didnt think much of it...

I know there was an older version,

but my first time watching was in Jit's house....

It was ok la,

I really loved the car,

but the whole show looked kinda boring,

so didnt bother about it much....

BUt then later I gave it a try....

IT WAS NICE!!!

Hehe....

2 things I love about the movie,

one like I've mentioned,

THE CAR!!!

WOW,

A Mustang wei...

I may not know much about cars,

but I know I would dream and drool over a car like that,

the features of the car itself already is a magnet to all guys around...

I love the way it transforms although it reminds me a lot about TRANSFORMERS...

Hehe...

Exactly the same transformation style...

BUt the second thing I love is the advance High-tech things they do...

Seeing how the agents hack into computer systems,

into security cameras,

into networks,

phone lines,

and how they use Artificial Intelligence to crack cases....

To me,

IT's SO COOL....

HAha....

To some extend i wish i was a hacker...

YOu sEE tHE dEPtHs Of mY HEaRt aNd YOu LOvE mE tHE samE...

INDESCRIBABLE

Chris Tomlin

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creations revealing your majesty
From the colours of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable;
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable;
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and give source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

Indescribable, uncontainable;
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable;
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Indescribable, uncontainable;
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

I really love this song,
it's one of my favourite songs....
I so happen to be listening to it last night during devotion...
This time I was listening to a different version...
It was by Passion...
And some how suddenly I heard something, and I realized something....
GOd was showing and telling me something...
Indescribable God,
He is indeed indescribable but
not only He made the sun, moon and stars,
not only becaused He created the seas and the mountains,
not only because He created every season summer, spring, autumn and winter,
not only becasue He was the Creator of all things,
but this time I saw something more than all that,
why He is INdescribable,
is because
HE LOVES US just the same
even though He knows the
DEPTHS of our HEARTS....

When I heard that,
I was like WOW,
Even though you know how evil we can be
Even though you know how we as your creation will betray you
Even though you know how we cling a lot to our selfish desires
Even though you know how we will fail you
Even though you know so much about who we are,
knowing how much we do not deserve You,
You still by your grace and mercy,
LOVE US STILL THE SAME....

Think of it,
how many of us after,
knowing all the dark secrets and shocking truths about a friend,
after seeing and knowing the depths our their hearts
can still love them,
holding nothing back from them?
But loving them STILL THE SAME?
I CANT...

"Incomparable, unchangeable,
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same;
You are amazing God,
You are amazing God.."

Indeed Lord,
You are amazing GOd,
Thank YOU for loving me just the SAME even by knowing the DEPTHS of my HEART..
You are trully Amazing...

An ORdinARy SUndAy... An X-tRAORdinARy inCident... And A LeSSOn LeARnt...

Well, like i said it was just like any Sunday,
Sitting in City mall's Big Apple,
with a drink and my computer...
And then it was time to pick Christine from the airport....
So off I went with Esther to the car....
And to my greatest shock,
THE CAR WOULDN't START!!!!
Honestly, i started to panic....
What was worse,
the alarm started to go on and the car locks went crazy....
I WAS LIKE,"AHHH!!!!"
Though it was a scream i did in my heart and didnt let out....
I also was asking GOd what to do now...
Well, Esther and I tried and tried but couldnt do anything,
something was wrong....
Esther then gave me Melvyn and Joshua's phone to contact them since she said they lived nearby anyway....
I was a bit "pai seh" at first since I didnt know them as well,
but i was desperate....
I CALLED!!!!
I didnt know how to put into words,
but I just spoke la,
Joshua who was on the phone with me agreed instantly to come....
In less than 5 minutes,
they came...
I was like WOW....
They then helped check on the car and found out about the battery of Christine's car to have "dried up"....
Josh then called Eric who had jumper cables and he too immediately responded and came within 5 minutes too....
WOW again...
He then linked the jumper cables from his car to Christine's...
And after a few minutes,
it started...
PRAISE GOD....
Whew....
I thanked them and rushed to the airport to pick Christine...
I too thought that was the end of the Episode....
But then, just after about 100 metres,
I came to a U turn, and just as I was about to enter the U turn,
the car stopped AGAIN!!!
I screamed softly again "AHHH!!!!"
NOT NOW, in the middle of a busy road....
BUt God does work in wondrous ways...
Eric and Josh was just behind us....
This time, it was more challenging as there were cars honking us and stuff...
I was praying like so hard man....
This time it took longer than usual....
And finally the car started up in 10 over minutes....
This time Josh drove the car with Esther and I went with Eric....

Yup, indeed an ordinary sunday turned EXTRAordinay because of this incident,
Lesson LEARNT???
Well,
basically two lessons....

1. I felt very helpless that time when I just didnt know what was going on with the car... And even when Josh and Eric were there to help, I didnt even know WHAT TO DO... In a way I was very disappointed with myself that I didnt know what to do, I didnt know how... I didnt know why.... Sigh, that was when I challenged myself, or i think it was more of GOD challenging me to not be so layed back anymore, if I can learn something, i SHOULD... I should be more deligent into looking into learning and acquiring skills and knowledge.... I just want to increase my general knowledge... I MUST LEARN TO PUSH MYSELF... And like Pastor shared the Sunday itself to learn to COME OUT of my COMFORT ZONE... I wouldnt call myself a spoilled child, but I wouldnt consider myself as a very handy guy either... I need to be like what Russell Peter says.... BE A MAN!!

2. But the second thing was about ONE BODY.... I thank God for the family he's given me here.... Like Pastor shared before, whever I go, I HAVE FAMILY, because of CHRIST.... In such times of helplessness and need, they are always there willing to help... That night, Eric, Melvyn and Joshua had a birthday celebration and they not only sacrificed their time and effort, but I sensed so strongly they did it with such a WILLING HEART to come all this way to help a guy they barely know.... They responded without hesitation, they also never blamed me or said I was taking their time, They NEVER mentioned anything like that but came helping me with a smile... I could see so clearly that they cared, since the first thing they did was ask about me and console me that it was normal to face such incidents... In the car with Eric, he kept telling me it was normal and was so patient into telling me a few basics about how to start a car and what to do during such situations.... I said thanks, and he kept saying "No Prob" with a smile which helped me feel so much better at that situation.... Even Pastor John called me during that time to see whether I was ok, and kept calling to ask about the situation.... It's not that I dont know about the loving family of GOd, but somehow, when we are really are in the situation, that the THEORY we learnt becomes a reality that you get such a revelation that now, YOUR WHOLE BEING, not only your mind knows what it trully means.... And that is when we Trully LEARN a LESSON....

I was very touched by them and I thank GOd so much for them.... I dont know what else to say but Thanks, and I pray that we would be able to grow closer as a family to continue to help each other during this JOURNEY OF LIFE.....

ALoNe? LoNeLiNess? soLituDe? WIFI?

It's another Sunday...
And I'm once again "Feeding" off someone's WIFI...
HAha, but am legally feeding k....
Last time was Starbucks,
and then Old Town,
and today am at BIG APPLE...
So tempted to have a donut...
Hehe....
Yup,
this is how i go through Sundays...
Just God,
me,
My lappy-top,
and
a drink....
It's really relaxing and a great way to spend the Sundays....
But of course this is only if I am all alone for the sundays...
IF there's someone to accompany me,
or if there's some event I've got to attend,
then yup,
you know the rest of the story....

But such times are indeed treasure...
Being in Uni,
there is hardly anytime for you to sit down and stop worrying about stuff around...
Even if you have the time,
some thing or someone will always come in the picture,
and that time of "silence" is disrupted....
NOt blaming those things la...
In fact I love to do stuff,
and I definitely love spending time with PEOPLE....
But we just have to find some time to sit down,
relax,
reflect,
blog,
use internet,
chat with buddies and family back home....
Like what someone once told me,
it's not good to leave in loneliness,
but then it's always good to find time to be alone,
with both yourself(REFLECTION),
and with GOD(PRAYER),
especially in such BUsy busy times of our era....

To me it's really refreshing....
To both Mind and Spirit....
Priase gOd for times like this...

19 days more PAulus....
19!!!! Woohoo...
Cant wait...

SettLiNG DoWn

Well,
It has been long since I've last updated Bloggy....
Hehe...
2 reasons in particular ba,
1 is because the school line like you know it bad...
SERIOUSLY BAD!!!
Well, we cant help it since it feeds into 6000 over laptops each day...
Haha....
And the other reason is just because I'm plain lazy sometimes and cant rake the time up to write something...
As the saying goes:
"There's no such thing as NO TIME,
we need to MAKE TIME",
but for now,
blogging isnt a priority...
Yup, anywayz,
God indeed have been gracious,
Have not been feeling homesick much anymore..
Hehe, Am learning to enjoy my Uni life to the FULLEST HERE...
Here are some things I've been up too....


Yup, that's a Kimono... During one of the weeks, I saw this advert up offering photography sessions on Kimonos... I've always thought it was cool la... Hehe, So Since a bunch of my friends were heading there,
I decided to join them, I didnt regret the experience, It was fun to see how I looked like as a Naruto Character, Haha... Dont I look a lil like Neji?? And by the way, Kimono's are for both guys and girls if any of you were wondering....

One of the subjects I took during this sem is APPRECIATING ART... It was actually a quite a boring subject, till we had our PERFORMANCE nite.... During that nite we have to do anything relating to the performing arts, which will stand about 40% of our entire course for the sem, my group chose to do a musical drama... That nite was pretty exciting, it was my first time being in theatres, with the lightings, the huge stage and the costumes... Thank God our drama went well... But the whole nite was really unique... Being able to see different people showing their different talents in dancing, singing and acting... It changed my whole opinion on this subject...

No I am not becoming more Japanese, Haha, but then Sushi King was on offer, so off we went, a total of 20 of us to just treat ourselves with those rice balls... It wasnt great la, now I know why my brother despised that place... HAha, but then the experience and fellowship with my fellow course mates was great...

THis is my favourite class... ENGLISH... NO, it's not that i love the subject but it's actually the teacher... He is an amazing lecturer, one that I look up to... He is not a go-by-book teacher, but one who teaches with his heart... While teaching, he would tell us stories and jokes and life experiences to teach us more than the subject, more than education, more than head knowledge, but to teach us how to survive.... Love him wei, we all do... To me, he is a bench mark for all lecturers to follow, that is what I call a teacher who trully has a passion for TEACHING....

This are only a quarter of my course mates, but they are the closer bunch to me... They are the ones that are usually there when there are activities.... Though this is my second family day, i just dont want to miss an oppotunity to bond and discover new friendships... Being a guy that easily forgets CHINESE names, hehe, i took the effort to get to know each one of their names here... Hopefully by the end of the 3 years here I would be able to name them all... But thank God for that day, we trully had a great time... Was thrown into the sea again, but who cares if it only draws friends together....

3 more weeks and I've finished this sem,

WOW,

I really cant believe it,

but time trully flies when you are having fun...

BUt I also look forward lots to going back and to the end year activities...

WHEEEE....

FOr now, have to study hard for finals....

Thank GOd trully for not only helping me to settle down more,

but also being so real to me through his Word and his Peace...

THANK HIM FOR HIS FAITHFULNESS!!!

CLimBiNG tHE moUNtaiN of LIFE....

As I was climbing Mount K,

I was taught and reminded a thing or two about life...

Life is a mountain,

and what keeps us going?

Hope,

Like climbing mount K,

my hope was to reach the peak,

that was my goal,

my dream,

my DESTINATION...

I actually did not think it was gonna be that difficult,

since I conquered it before when I was seven...

BUt the climb was challenging,

it was difficult...

MAn I have sore feet now...

Haha...

There were a few moments while climbing,

that I thought to myself,

What on earth am I striving here for?

What the, how come still got so far to go?

YOU SURE I can reach there?

GOSH!!!!

But as I pressed on,

one step at a time,

and when I reached the top,

My, my, my...

The view was Simply AMAZING....

When I got to that point,

the stiving,

the pain,

the panting,

even my sore leg now,

was worth it...

IT WAS INDEED WORTH THE CLIMB...

Lesson?

Life is as such,

there are points in life that we just wanna give up,

that we think why on earth lord?

WHY? WHY am I DOING THIS?

The Mountain is so so BIG!!

HOW CAN I CONQUER IT?

Why ARENT I THERE YeT?

But Like the Word says,

if we stay faithful to HIM,

taking ONE STEP at a time,

the end would be breath-taking,

it would be MARVELLOUS,

it will be

WORTH IT....

To those who are going through life's toughest times,

let it be a reminder,

to persevere,

to stay strong,

and to stay faithful,

and when the end comes,

when the dawn arrives,

the LIGHT will overcome the DARKNESS....

a TRiButE tO mY aH KonG...

The funeral just ended...
It is the last time I will be able to see him in his "shell",

but I praise God for meeting with him,

that now I know,

though it is the last on earth,

It isnt the last at all...

For I will see him again,

some day,

with a smile on his face,

to welcome me HOME....

Some day, Some day....

M SoRRiE...

This might sound weird and all,
But,
I just want to say sorry to everyone...
Here's why,
It's great being back la...
I always look forward to it....
I always look forward to seeing everyone back home,
Hanging out and catching up with you guys is trully something I will never get tired of doing....
Note that when I say no to somethng,
It's not because i dont want to go out with you guys,
it's not because i dont want to go for a Counter Strike game with you guys,
it's not that I have no time for you guys...
Yaya, i know we have to make time,
But please know that I am struggling to be able to make time with everyone...
If I could,
I would always say yes to every invitation you guys give to me...
BUt reality is,
I CANT!!!!
Why?
Well, it's just hard to explain...
So even for this trip,
and for any future times we have,
please do note it is indeed a joy to be able to be around you guys...
I would not miss building a friendship,
But I do do hope you guys will understand too....
That everytime you ask me,
I would try my very very best to go....
And every time i cant make it,
everytime there's a no,
It's because I Trully trully cant...
So,
I just wan to say sorry to those who think i just dont want to give them time...
I ask only for this from you as a friend,
that you help me by understanding and trusting me,
whenever I give a NO.....
Thanks, Love you guys lots...

Failure Vs. FailinG...

Failure in
an exam,
a task,
a competition,
a job,
a mission,
in fulfilling a responsibility,
in accomplishing something...

FAILURE, is hard enough to handle....
But you know what I realized today?

Failure in something,
isn't as bad as
FAILING a person...

Failing
a partner,
your teammates,
your group...

Failing
your parents,
your siblings,
YOur family...

Failing
a friend,
a pal,
a brother,
or sister...

Failing
a person that means a lot to you,
people you love so much,
those closest to your heart...

The Heartache that comes with it,
the pain of not being able to do anything,
and the sore you feel
whenever you just try to do better,
but cant seem to move beyond that...

EVer felt that way before???

a WaLk tO r3m3mB3r...

It was NAtional Day,
And my plan was to just study at Christine's place since I've got the whole house to myself...
I just had a bad week last week...
Was struggling with myself and God and the new environment...
Was feeling "lonely" for the whole week...
And I finally admit was feeling SUPER HOME SICK...
I was better and on the road to recovery that day...

While I was studying though,
an sms came,
and so I went to the beach....
Esther wanted to have some fresh air at the beach...
I saw myself doing a favour for her as Phang Cheng, herself and me went together to Teluk Likas...

Somehow,
I believed God planned that trip for me...
As I walked on the sandy beaches,
it was actually quite a dirty beach...
But then,
AT LEAST THERE's a beach to walk one rite?
Hehe...
While walking,
feeling the sand on my feet,
HEaring the waters splash against the shores,
feeling the sea breeze on your face,
and my favourtie one,
seeing the Sun set beyond the horizon...

I was like WOW...
Wow....
WOW!!!
Thank you Lord for bringing me here...
Somehow I feel closer to you whenever I am here...
Seeing the sun set,
reminds me of YOU looking down on me,
Watching over me...

Though I am going through a rough patch in life...
Thank you for being EMMANUEL,
GOd with us,
GOD with ME...
Keeping me,
Preserving me, Training me,
Growing me
and LOVING ME....

It was indeed a Walk TO REMEMBER
the WONDER<
the Awesome-ness,
and
the BEAUTY
of MY GOD....

I know it might soung late...
But HAPPY BIRTHDAY MALAYSIA!!!!
LOVE YOU MALAYSIA...

Whatever people say about you,
I believe that in CHRIST,
ALL things are possible,
MALAYSIA MESTI BOLEH!!!

wiZe sAYinGs...

An encouraging, meaningful and METAphorical conversation:

The WISE one:
"Maybe it might not be wat u have here in klg
but hey,
its gonna to be a whole new growing up processs for u bro
new ppl,
new challenges,
when u are weak
thats when God is strong....."

"Step out of your comfort zone,
it takes time for friendships to grow....."

Pingu:
"I am just being an impatient penguin that's all
hehehe..."

The WISE one:
"True true,
*spank*!!
as same species,
have to teach u how to be more patient,
when its no longer an igloo u are staying in
but a tropical land God put u in now..."

Pingu:
(Speechless and amazed at the wisdom of the WISE one)

The WISE one:
"Haha
no worries,
penguin have very high adaptation
and most importantly,
they have a pure and warm heart despite the coldness around them,
u will do fine
*hugs*
owh hrm,
sum correction to the metaphore,
before this u are living in igloo
now Daddy brought u out of igloo into the snow-capped land,
walking on iceberg,
tats why u felt cold

Pingu:
"WOW(even more AMAZED....)"

The WISE one:
"But tats exactly wat ur fats around ur tummy are for
lol..
well tats what i learnt,
and which u will learn
as u take a step out into the world
ha...."

I am trully blessed to have friends who would come into my life to encourage and strengthen me with God's word...
After all, a friend in NEED is a friend INDEED...
Thanks to WISE PENGUIN, HAHA...

hOmE... A gooD rEsT....

Well, after a weeks break back home,
I am back in Uni again....
Thank GOd for the fruitful week he gave me in Kluang..
Spending time with
my parents,
my siblings,
Aunty Vicky,
My Grandma,
My Ah Kong,
My cousins,
My Uncles and Aunties,
and
Yam chaing with friends....
IT has been refreshing....
Being able to catch up and hang out....
HOme is just so nice....
Well,
being back here makes me more homesick then when I came here for the first time....
Must be the symptoms of home...
My dear comfort zone...
Wont be able to be back for at least 3 months....

Thank you Lord for everyone back home...
Call me weird or anything,
but i already miss you guys...
Looking forward to being back again...

But as for now,
teach me to move forward in you...

SickLy...

WHoa...
Finally I am hit...
My first time getting sick in Sabah...
I hate it man....
Haha....
BUt It has been the quickest recovery I've ever experienced...
It happened yesterday when I had fried chicken chop rice for lunch....
It was really good, Uncle BOb's chicken,
I then was so tempted to have an ice-cream so I had a double cone....
Right that nite, I was starting to feel phlegm and a little sore at my throat....
Went for a youth leader's prayer meeting at Pastor John's house....
During prayer I asked GOd for healing...
The funny thing is after prayer, I only felt the burn coming on my head and was feeling dizzy...
I was like what is god trying to tell me? Hmmmm...
And I was so worried... Cause I'll be so busy this week and I cant afford to fall sick now...
ANd if I really fall really sick,
am I to skip classes since the H1N1 is so widely feared in my school...
I just prayed and told God that I will just trust him...
Before I slept,
I had 10 over slices of oranges,
a panadol,
a Vitamin C Redoxon drink,
and
3 litres of 100 plus...
Thank GOd, the next morning I felt much better,
Went to class and after that,
Went back to sleep from 11 till 3...
Thank God that I am much better now...
He is good...

seNDiRi PerAsAN...

Ya, ya I know...

Call me perasan or something...

I accept it....

Cause I really am for this post....

Haha....

Well, sometimes while doing work,

YOu tend to get bored,

yup,

I was bored...

And so I was just playing around with my computer and exploring...

Then I just manage to switch on my webcam,

and i saw myself in the computer...

Ya,

so I just smiled and snap,

smiled and SNAP....

Hehe....

It's pretty fun actually...

YOu should try it sometime...

Haha...
The rest will be on facebook....

hehe....

pERuBaHaN..

"Don't just change enough to get away from your problems;

change enough to SOLVE it.

Don't just change your circumstances to improve your life;

change yourself to IMPROVE circumstances.

Don't do the same things expecting different results;

get different results by doing something NEW.

Don't see change as something hurtful that must be done;

see it as something helpful that CAN be done.

Don't avoid paying the immediate price tag of change;

if you do, you will pay the ULTIMATE PRICE OF NEVER IMPROVING."

Dr John Maxwell

This was part of my quiet time today,

It's a very meaningful, true yet scary TRUTH to face...

I am not writing this because I've learnt to accomplish that,

IN FACT,

it's the direct opposite...

Change, Sigh,

AHHHHH!!!!!

CHANGE, DOUBLE SIGH....

Change to me is such a big TABOO word...

Deep down, I can say I HATE change,
whether is because of my personality,

or watever,

deep down I resent change...

I just dislike it lar...

I love my life the way it is...

Back home,

my routine is fun, cool, enjoyable and satisfying...

Dont you ever touch my routine or I'll BITE!!!

Hehe...

That's me lar...

I just give one simple example,

Sports back home to me is an untouchable time...

4pm till 7pm,

I just have to be at sports during that time...

It's one of the peek moments of my week,

where I get to not only exercise,

but be able to spend time and catch on different people I get to meet there...

Sigh,

i do LOVE those times...

I get quite upset when something crops up during that time and I have to forgo sports...

Last time, whenever it rained during a Sunday afternoon,

I would be so super angry cursing the rain...

Haha,

though I am better at it now,

I can admit I still struggle to accept change...

And today, the challenge is not only to acccept it,

BUT PURSUE IT...

Wow,

This is super tough to me,

It's a real challenge to me,

especially now that my entire "back home" routine has changed COMPLETELY...

God has been gracious though,

I didnt expect myself to survive till this today...

I was expecting depression and ultra-homesickness...

BUt some how God has helped me pull through...

Am reminded again that GROWTH is crucial...

Either you GROW, or DETERIORATE...

This is reality,

We live in a world that changes with TIME...

HOw then can we continue to stay the 'same' to live in "this TIME",

sooner or later we will be "outdated"...

I dont mean change according to the world...

I mean CHANGE From Glory to Glory in CHRIST...

A CHANGE of HEart from day to day...

And how do we do it?

Ask the Lord...

"CREATE IN ME A CLEAN HEART; OH GOD, AND RENEW A RIGHT SPIRIT WIHTIN ME."

Psalm 51:10

Only He can help change a person,

Only He has the power to Change you and ME...

But it starts with a CHOICE....

DO we want to CHANGE when God asks us to?

Do we want to at least LEARN to step out of our COMFORT ZONE?

Or do we want to just be SUBBORN???

It's super hard...

I know,

Am struggling myself....

But only when we decide to surrender ourselves to GOd's CHANGE,

will we see wonders in our life,

Only then can we become effective,

Only then we will learn to TRULLY LIVE...

ONLY WHEN WE CHANGE,

can we

CHANGE THE WORLD!!!!!

Psalm 124...

I LIFT MY EYES UP

Brian Doerksen

Verse:

I lift my eyes up

to the mountains

where does my help come from,

My help comes from you

Maker of heaven

Creator of the earth;

Chorus:
Oh how I need you Lord

You are my only hope

You're my only prayer,

So I will wait for you,

to come and rescue me

come and give me life.

This is an amazing song,

Especially at this point of time in my life,

It speaks about who I can turn to whenever I need help,

whenever i Need ANYTHING...

What's more, my window faces Mount Kinabalu,

which makes it much more 'applicable' and meaningful to me,

especially when I can see the sun rising from behind the mountains each morning...

The sun indeed reminds me of the Glory of God,

and as each new day comes,

His Mercies Are New Every MOrning...

I am going through i period of time where I am seriously out of my comfort zone...

I could even say I hate being taken out of the security I was in before...

But through this,

I believe GOd is helping me to learn to rely on HIm totally...

Someone told me that I am like the Israelites,

who went in the wilderness for 40 years,

as God wanted them to realise who their God is,

and to learn to rely and depend on Him totally...

Back home,

I have super loving parents,

I had my siblings around,

I have Aunty Vicky who cared so much for me,

I have my Grandma and Aunties and Uncles,

I have all my cousins who are close to me,

I have my friends espcially those who are in Yf who I've established such a deep relationship with,

and that kept me going and helped me look forward each week when I was back home,

I loked forward to weekends especially,

where it was a time of building relationships with each one...

BUt now,

God 'took' that away from me,

I'm still learning to make friends,

and even the friends I meet just arent the same as back home...

The relationship isn't there yet,

My greatest struggle now is not experiencing the close knitted relationships I had back home,

the sense of security,

comfort,

THE LOVE...

It was easy being me,

being who I am and not being afraid of not being accepted...

Now, it's all different...

Everything that I hold so dear,

is a "SOUTH CHINA SEA" apart...

BUt the story doesnt end by saying I am DEPRESSED...

HEhe,

I am actually fine...

In fact,

I am better than I ever expected,

and It has nothing to do with me,

and ALL TO DO WITH GOD...

He is the one sustaining me here...

I do have lots of down times,

I do have lots of home sick moments,

but then,

God has placed me here in the wilderness,

IT's MY TIME TO LEARN TO TRUST IN HIM...

EcoNoMics... Part 1(selfishness)

Am in the campus library now,
It's the best place in Uni for internet connection and comfort...
Hehe,
anywayz,
just finished my first Economics class...
So far, of all the classes,
I would say I enjoy this class the most so far....
The lecturer is so cool,
He has this amazing Indian accent when he teaches,
He's also quite funny and he makes his class as interesting and interactive as possible...
Being introduced to Economics for the first time(never taken economics as a subject before),
I found out now that it is actually a lot to do with common sense...

Definition for Economics:
"It's a social study on how individuals or institutions and society make optimal choices under conditions of scarcity"

To put it simply,
Economics,
is a study of
HOW PEOPLE MAKE CHOICES....

When the lecturer was giving examples and giving us a first day introduction to subject,
something HIT me into thinking(Yes, I was still paying attention to the lesson)....
The Comic of Calvin and Hobbes(which is one of my favorite comics btw) above speaks a thousand words to what really HIT me during class....

I personally believe everyone is a great Economist...
Why?
Because we are all born as selfish beings on this earth....
We crave for what we want,
we get frustrated, angry and bitter when we cant get it...
Most of the times we have a hidden agenda or motive into doing something....
This in economic terms is called,
Marginal Analysis...
People analyze on what they can obtain if they buy a certain product,
or if they invest in a certain company,
or even if they do something for a friend....
It is all the selfish nature of a human being...
We are taught in class that Never ever let the Cost(sacrifice) be greater than the Benefit(fruit)...

So my question is this...
Is hidden motive fully a bad thing??
Aren't we all driven by something in order to do something??
It's like the law of linear motion, without any force applied to a certain object,
it stays at an unchanged position,
but only with a push, will it move...
Then don't we humans need a "push" too??
To a certain extend selfishness is bad....
But is there a certain level of "selfishness" that moves it into the Grey area??
Hmmmm....

I will only post my response in part 2...
Feel free to help me....
Hehe...
God Bless...

a GLimpse oF LiFe

Beyond the horizon lies my destination for now...

Oh Lord, what will I find there???

Yup, it is by the beach and facing MOunt KK...

Good feng sui, according to the lecturer, Haha....

I think Phang Cheng's got his first "star", Hehe,

UMS have their own aquarium...

See the sea of yellow-coloured-batik-wearing people...

The hall can sit around 5000 people, cool place to hold a concert....

We had riadah on the second last nite, aerobics lar...

This is one of my favourite....

For the last nite there was performances by the Art faculty...

It was great actually....

This is the traditional Iban dance....

w3LcoM3 tO 5aBaH

Woohoo...
Thank God I finally got the line...
Well,
Really doesn't seem like it,
really cant believe it,
But Uni LIFE has indeed started for me...
Well, how do I feel after a week???
Well, It's a mixture of emotions, really...
I actually kinda like the place,
(wont say love first)....
The orientation, a lot of the taklimats, to be honest, it is SUPER BORING....
And also my dorm is in a really bad state....
Other than that, I like my Uni,
It's by the beach and faces the mountain too...
The people here especially the locals are really friendly....
The seniors here are also really really helpful....
WOuldn't survive without them around to help, guide and advice me...
The facilities here is super cool too...
There's an aquarium, there's rock climbing,
and the Biggest rounded shaped hall compared to other U's is here too....
Well, as for Uni life, hmmmm....
Am actually getting used to it...
Hand-washing your own clothes and stuff like that...
But am enjoying it,
just that I do also miss Kluang and everyone back home...
this would be the biggest challenge for me la...
Not being able to see the people dearest to me as often as i can anymore...
but Thank God for Phang Cheng...
At least there's someone here to make me feel that home is not too far away...
hehe....
And I also thank God, he has really blessed me in so many ways...
the walks back to my hostel talking to him really is amazing....
To everyone back home,

MISSING YOU GUYS....

DO PRAY FOR ME,

THAT GOD WILL SUSTAIN ME AND HELP ME SEE AND FULFILL MY PURPOSE HERE IN UMS AND IN SABAH....

LOVE YOU GUYS MUCH....

rUsh, RuSH, RUSH...

So much to prepare,

So much to do, So little time...

Am starting to feel it now,

4 more days left,

ONLY 4 lei,

and I've gotta leave already....

Dont worry, I am fine,

it's just that it seems so fast,

and so sudden....

Though I've got so much to prepare,

it is not so much the physical preparation,

but more of the emotional and mental one....

The thing I am gonna miss the most and i think everyone does anyway, is,

the RELATIONSHIPS I am leaving behind....

I AM gonna miss everyone here...

I am bad at GoodByes...

Why?

Cause I dont like the word at all....

But life is as such,

we just have to leave some time or another....

As the saying goes,

"GOOD TIMES WILL COME TO AN END"...

My prayer is that though physically I have to leave you guys,

God will still in His way sustain all our relationship....

Now the question is,

AM I READY TO LEAVE???

AM I READY TO FACE WHAT's AHEAD???

Well, all I can ever say is:

"Lord, only you i put my trust in, my Hope is in you, sustain me for what's ahead..."

WHaT HaPP3Nz, WH3N 4 GuYz R L3fT iN Da RooM 2 CL3aN uP...

We're just being GUYZ....

A BLazt HoL-eE-Dei....

Whew, THANK GOD, thank GOd my line finally is working....
It isn't perfect but still, it is working la....
WOO HOO!!!!
Yup, It's been a long while since I got to write anything....
God has been good to bless me with such an amazing month of holiday...
It is really refreshing but tiring(though it seems like an oxymoron that those 2 words can come together)....
For this post, I shall not post pictures, Hehe, cause most of it is already on facebook and I will just post some in some later blogs...

29th May:
We had a great party at Josie's house, It was packed with form 6 students... I felt a bit akward at first, since they were all Josie's year one, but then I was pretty amazed at how friendly these guys were... Had quite a great time, though it did remind me of my time in form 6 which was really THE BEST, schooling experience I had so far...

30th May - 2nd June:
Man, I had really one of the best times of my life... CHURCH CAMP... I praise God for opening the way for me to go.... I've always loved church camp.... The previous one in Kuantan was really one to remember... I was quite disappointed that it was cancelled last year, by GOD's GRACE, he made it happen this year...
To me, the biggest thing I look forward to during church camp is being able to hang around, talk, chat, spend time, linger, have fun, get to know and ENJOY each other's presence, I thought the Kuantan church camp was great, little did I know the things God was gonna do for this year's church camp.... The theme talks by Pastor Joshua was just great... Not just enthusiatic and funny, but one that I believe so much is from the Lord, it really convicted us all, especially on UNITY... The most meaningful theme talk was on the second morning where we had an amazing time praying for one another, God really worked in our hearts individually and corporatelly as a CHURCH.... Another thing that really striked me a lot is when pastor Joshua spoke to the youth and told us all to "RISE UP AND BE STRONG".... Wow, that was indeed powerful.... That is indeed the cry of my heart, to see young people of my generation RISE UP, especially the youths in KLUANG....
Other than the theme talks, we had super fun together... I am so so encouraged by how the Uncle's and Aunty's all participated so much.... Really shows that our church are full of AMAZING PEOPLE.... Trully am encouraged man.... Spending time with each other was great.... I bunked in with Gideon, Sean and Justin, wow, the fun we had each nite, teehee, really NUTS la.... Playing cards all nite till we kena from Security.... Playing volley ball and water polo.... Running along the beach and lying down on the sand with different people...
The testimonies given by different people was also VERY VERY POWERFUL, I have never heard testimonies so real, so powerful and so genuine from the HEART before, I nearly cried of Joy and gratitude during the sharing...
Church camp.... Really an unforgettable one for me.... Praise God for the experience, PRAISE God for church camp, Praise God for my church...
You guys will always have a special place in my heart....
Love lots....

3rd May - 5th May:
MYPG, here we come.... Set off on the 3rd nite, was very encouraged to see 20 of us from Kluang... It was a pretty long day, I would be lying if I said I was super attentive the whole day.... Hehe, I was actually pretty tired, but thank God for giving me the strength... I led in praying for the different LYPGs around.... It was great to see different LYPG leaders praying for one another... Uncle richard spoke on leadership and challenged the youths to rise up and stand up for righteousness in our land... He challenged the MEN to rise up and lead first, since God first called men to lead.... And he challenged the WOMEN to rise up and support the MEN... Anywayz, Great job to the Alor setar team... Thanks for taking such good care of us... We had some complications and nearly couldn't catch a bus home....

5th May(nite):
We celebrated Gid's farewell at KFC Kluang mall... Yup, a bunch of crazy youths again, making noise, clowning around and being SILLY in PUBLIC... Haha... After dinner, all the guys made a trip to CC.... COUNTER STRIKE MAN.... HEHE.... It was so so cool.... A total of 20 plus of us went.... IT was CRAZY, shouting at each other across the room, like the whole CC belongs to us... Haha... It was so fun we proposed to do it during Boyz nite.....

6th May:
We had community service on that day... We basically went together as a whole youth group to the railway track to give out food and supplies.... It was an eye-opening experience for me as I never knew there were so many people in need just at my doorstep.... Well, this is the first step for Ablaze to step out and serve the community....
At nite, the Tangs came and stayed over at my house... We went out for Mamak and stuff and stayed up pretty late watching Madagascar.... It was great having them around...

7th - 9th May:
We set off for FWP after church service... I was pretty nervous about driving on the highway by myself.... But to my great astonishment, it went out great, greater than expected, not bragging, but really, I never drove so smoothly on the highway before.... Praise GOd la... Plus I have people like Xueqi in the car to keep me awake.... Haha....
It was great to finally be able to meet up with the leaders which most of them I only got to speak to them via phone....
For the whole FWP, It was tiring running around and making sure the guys are fed well, that they have blankets and all... But honestly, it was God who gave me the strength plus the Joy to do all those.... We had an amazing nite of nitez.... We had a 2 hour session of prayin in the spirit and worship in the spirit.... God really blew us all away.... He revealed so much of himself to us....
The biggest thing is about the HEART.... I am reminded again why I do this and why I do anything at all.... It is for God.... we do it in response for His love.... Everything is in vain if it isnt directed to our Lord...
"Refine our hearts oh God, make it yours and YOURS alone".....
Thank God for FWP, a reminder for all of us and for me especially of the HEart of all things....
Jesus my Lord....

9th June(nite):
Though I was pretty tired, I had to make it for Jane's farewell.... It was the last time I will be seeing her for a long while.... Though I only got to know her for 2 years, she has been a wonderful friend.... We had a great time with her and yamseng-ing.... Hehe.... God Bless you Jane.... Thanks for being part of ourlives...

10th June:
You know la who's birthday.... Haha.... Derek hitched a plan to SARBOH our dear Jit.... We all met at kluang mall first before heading over to his house.... Armed with shaving cream, flour and cake..... Eish, we nearly GOT HIM.... He sniffed through alll our scams.... Haha.... I believe it was a birthday to remember, RITE JIT?

11th June:
Not only Baby Aeden was born, we had visitors.... Yvonne, Elaine and Stephanie came down to Kluang after visiting Melaka.... We brought them to many places to makan since they love food.... We had a lovely time to catch up....
But the happening thing was the BOYZ NITE.... WOO HOO!!!!
It was a whole nite of PS games, board games, counter strike and sleeping for us guys... It was the best fun nite I had.... It was also the first ever time I did not sleep for the whole nite at all... The best part of the fun nite was our COuNTER STRIKE session... there was about 22 of us and we crowded the same CC.... As before, we were shouting and yelling at each other across the room.... It was CRAZY, simply CRAZY.... It was great to have Gideon back home too... BOYZ NITE, GUYS ONLY, Hanging out with one another = Brotherly love and fellowship and FUN....

12th June:
I slept till 3pm.... Man was I tired.... Went over to help to set up the BBQ pit for Jit..... We had Calvin and Pastor Catherine over.... It was great to start the BBQ fire... Especially when you have Cheng Yee there.... Man, He really makes fire starting fun la.... Hehe....

Yup, that is a brief summary of my week.... Whew.... Like I said, refreshing and tiring at the same time... I thank God for giving me such an experience before I leave Kluang for my further studies.... Sigh... He is trully Good and Great...
I PRAISE YOU LORD FOR WHO YOU ARE AND FOR WHAT YOU'VE DONE IN ME AND FOR ME.....

L3ad3RshiP...

Once upon a beautiful day,

I was walking along Hyde Park...

And God showed and taught me an amazing lesson on leadership,

From the DUCKS....

God brings people in our life who needs to be led...

We are to care, shepherd and love them...

We are to nurture them and help them grow...

And when they are ready,

LET THEM SOAR TO LEAD OTHERS...

Th3 h3aRt b3at oF---MalaYSia...

Last Friday, I had the opportunity to go to Penang with 7 others to visit and take a sneak peek at Penang's 30 hour HOUSE OF PRAYER, which was started by this guy, Joshua Yeoh - A penangite, who studied in Minnesota and was called back to Malaysia...
I had a great time with the whole gang and also getting to meet Joshua and his team who are the ones organizing this 30 hour prayer...
This was my first time praying at 1a.m. will 3a.m.... And then praying again at 12p.m. till 4p.m...
To be really honest, I was tired at some point of the prayer meets... I have never been very strong in my prayer life, I can even say I still do struggle at times... But God revealed something to me about prayer... God gave me lots and lots of metaphors about prayer before... This time, it was in a form of a heart...
The heart beat of Malaysia, the thing that keeps Malaysia up and running is - PRAYER...
We can feed the poor as much as we can, we can send people into the mission fields as much as we want, we can have concerts, events, conferences, camps, as much as we like, but those are not the things that keep a nation ALIVE, those arent the things that keep the people of GOd pumping and running, those arent the things that will bring about TRANSFORMATION to a NATION and to the WORLD... PRAYER, both individual and corporate, is the very thing that keeps a nation ALIVE, PRAYER, is the very thing that sustains us all and PRAYER, is the key to NATION TRANSFORMATION AND GLOBAL IMPACT....



The tamil churches in Penang joining their hearts in prayer...



Pastor Ann Low leading the Pastor's fellowship in prayer...



Different generations praying and empowering each other for God's work...

MYPG team praying the Lord's prayer together...

Intercession for brothers and sisters in Christ in Penang for their daily needs...

A Place to write, draw and express what God has spoken to each of us...

Joshua Yeoh on the keyboard and Daniel Lee from Korea leading worship...

From left to right, bottom to top;

Elisabeth, Habshiba, Eunice,

Some guy in a white shirt, Cindy, April, Alvin and Cun Ling...

We had a great time of prayer together and a great time of fellowship with one another....

"...if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land."

2 Chronicles 7:14

LET US RISE UP AND PRAY, TO PUMP BLOOD AND LIFE INTO

MALAYSIA....