ChRisTmaZzz....

Christmas is a time to love.....
Yup, it is indeed one of my favourite carols.....
Not only that, but one of the greatest Christmas value system for me.....

Well, My favourite season is over again.....
Have to wait another year.....
Sigh.....

This year, i had one of the toughest times with the gifts.....
I was so frustrated about the gifts i bought for some of my friends.....
I just wanted to give them something they really like,
something they really love.....
Yes, i've heard it before....
"It is the heart that counts"
But, if you just simply give a gift to anyone just for the sake of it,
It already shows your heart....

Anyway, when i was being frustrated and worrying about the gifts,
God rebuked me.....
I remembered the song Christmas is a time
"We often start to worry, when people get upset,
when things dont go so right one christmas day"
That was exactly how i felt......
But then God asked me.....
What is Christmas???
Why celebrate it????
Then, i was ashamed,
facing the ground i said:
"Sorry Lord, yup, why worry, why frus???
Isnt this day YOUR DAY???
ISnt it your birthday, a reminder to the word of HOPE in you???
Thank You Lord, that though it is your birthday,
YOu gave me and the world a GIFT,
YOU GAVE US JESUS!!!!!

I was reading this book called,
THE GLORY OF CHRSITMAS.....
It really spoke to me.....

"Because of Jesus,
Because of Calvary,
For this Christmas I am FREE to Choose....
And So I CHOOSE,

I Choose Love..
No Occasion justifies hatred, no injustice warrants bitterness. I Choose to love. Today I will love God and what God loves.

I Choose Joy
I will invite my God to be the God of circumstance. I will refuse the temptation to be cynical, the tool of the lazy thinker. I will refuse to see people as anything less than human beings, created by God. I will refuse to see any problem as anything less than an opportunity to see God.

I Choose Peace
I will live forgiven. I will forgive so that i may live.

I Choose Patience
I will overlook the inconvenience of the world. Instead of cursing the one who takes my place, I'll invite him to do so. Rather than complain that the wait is too long. I will thank God for a moment to pray. Instead of clinching my fist at new assignments. I will face them with joy and courage.

I Choose Kindness
I will be kind to the poor, for they are alone. Kind to the rich, for they are afraid. And kind to the unkind, for such is how God has treated me.

I Choose Goodness
I will go without a dollar before i take a dishonest one. I will be overlooked before I will boast. I will confess before I will accuse.

I Choose Faithfulness
Today i will keep my promises. My debtors will not regret their trust. My associates will not question my word. My wife will not question my love. And my childrn will never fear that their father will not come home.

I Choose Gentleness
NOthing is won by force. I choose to be gentle. If i raise my voice may it only be in praise. If i clence my fist, may it be only in prayer. If i make a demand may it only be of myself.

I Choose Self-control
I am a spiritual being. After this body is dead, my spirit willsoar. I refuse to let what will rot, rule the eternal. I choose self-control. I will be drunk only by joy. I will be impassioned only by faith. I will be influenced only by God. I will be taught only by Christ.

Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulhess, Gentleness and Self-control. To these I commit my day. If i succeed, I will give thanks. If I fail, I will seek His grace. And then, when this day is done, I will place my head on my pillow and rest.

MAX LUCADO

This Christmas is a reminder for me of why and what i live for.....

I pray that the gift of Love will be the greatest gift i give to all,

just as it is the greatest gift God gave us.....

God Bless you all....

JOhn jOhN.... AgAp3's 1 N onLy JOHN....

EspLodeD....

E.S.P, ESP is on fire,

We dont want the devil cause the devil is a LIAR....

Woohoo...... AM BACK..... Just got back only, am feeling a bit tired, but dont wanna sleep.... Hehe.... So might as well write about camp sine it's just fresh in my head.....

Well, like always, it starts with a SIGh..... Man, camp is over..... Cant believe it.... Wished it could be longer...... But we have to come back to the real world now..... SNAP back to REALITy..... My bro always calls this the mountain top experience..... It's always hard to get back to 'life', but i think this time will be fine, since this isn't my first camp..... My view about camps like ESP, gives me a picture of heaven...... This is what i always imagine when we go to heaven..... We would all be living together, meeting together, playing together, having fun with one another, but most of all, worship God together..... It always gives me a glimpse of heaven and that's why i always always enjoy such camps..... Especially with the Ablazing YOUTHS.....

Anyway, this experience was great..... This time round, we had so much fun during sessions..... That's what i like about Pastor Victor..... He makes the topic all fun by speaking our language, helping us to get comfortable before giving us very practical but blibical teachings...... First night we had a Guy's competition..... All the guys rock and so did John.... Great job man..... Second day we had a WEDDING..... Haha.... It was really cool and funny..... Both Chris and Christina did great and were very sporting..... Once again, SORRY TO ISAAC LOY..... Haha.... I still owe you an ice-cream.....

To sum it all up i enjoyed Pastor victor's sessions very much..... I've learnt a lot......

Other than this, praying for others was also an amzing experience..... I thank god for the opportunity to be able to bless, encourage, anoint, speak into, affirm and build up others through prayer...... I also thank God for everyone who also came and bless me with prayer.....

But i think by far one of the most unique and loved experience in camp is Pastor Victor's blessing and Word of prophecies over the leaders lives ...... Followed by the prayer tunnel..... While i joined hands with Wei Ling to prayer for all that went through the tunnel, tears filled my eyes..... It was for 2 reasons, one is because i felt that this generation of young believers have talents, have gifts and they are simply amazing, BUT, many do not know that they are capable of much much more if and only if they learn to surrender their gifts, talents, passions, dreams, visions and Lives to GOd...... This i speak for myself also and i urge and encourage all to look beyond just their talent, knowing that it isnt in our talents that we rely on, but it's faith in JESUS, becuase in HIM, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE...... The second thing that triggered my tears was because I also saw a generation of BELIEVERS that have a HEART for GOD..... And that made me cry and weep and interceded for them...... Because i foresee a rising generation of CHIRSTIAN LEADERS that are conquerors..... A MIGHTY GENERATION OF SPIRITUAL LEADERS that God is already raising up......

It was a very refreshing camp..... I long to come back and impact my world....... I thank God for all the people I've got the priviledge to meet, especially those from other churches...... Also for the blazing youths that i has a chance to hang out with and talk to...... Last but not least, the friends that we brought to the camp...... ESPECIALLY LILY....Staying the same room with Him was fun with Wei Jie around too..... Hehe..... May God Bless you all......

"I'll Stand with arms high and heart abandoned, in all, for the ONE who gave it all,

I'll Stand, my soul long to you surrendered, all I am is YOURS"

sAy ChEezee....

DID YOU GUYS SEE IT?????

I think it was so cool.....

One of the very first times i saw an actual genuine natural smile....

Since the sky was smiling, it was all ready for a photo.....

Hehe.....

Thank You Lord for the smile....

Hmmmmm......

PATIENCE:

It isnt the ability to WAIT.....

It is the ability to WAIT with the RIGHT attitude.......

Whew...

Well,
There's a saying, "Time really flies when you're having fun".....
Do you know it works the other way round too?
It's like i cant seem to have enough time to finish my preparation completely,
Yet time is just moving so slowly i could run faster than it......
Sigh.....
OH well,

This is the Song in my mind for a while:

THE VOICE OF TRUTH

Oh,what I would do to have

the kind of faith it takes

To climb out of this boat I'm in

Onto the crashing waves

To step out of my comfort zone

Into the realm of the unknown

Where Jesus is,

And he's holding out his hand

But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me

Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed

The waves they keep on telling me time and time again

"Boy, you'll never win, you'll never win.

"But the voice of truth tells me a different story

the voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"

and the voice of truth says "this is for my glory"

Out of all the voices calling out to me

I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

Oh, what I would do to have

the kind of strength it takes

To stand before a giant

with just a sling and a stone

Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors

shaking in their armor

Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me

Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed

The giant keeps on telling me time and time again

"Boy you'll never win, you'll never win.

"But the voice of truth tells me a different story

the voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"

and the voice of truth says "this is for my glory"

Out of all the voices calling out to me

I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

Yup..... Though i am not going through an easy period, I thank GOd for HIs voice of truth that i CHOOSE to listen to.....

Help me Oh Lord.......

"GREAT JOB TO ALL WHO IS SITTING FOR SPM..... IT"S GONNA BE OVER SOON...... YOU GUYS DESERVED THE BREAK,

ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR LAST DAY!!!!!"

Eish!!!!

If Anyone knows what the word means......

Hehe......

Well,

I just feel so Eish now......

The worse feeling is not 'NOT KNOWING',

the worse feeling is 'KNOWING BUT YOU FORGOT'

I BELIEVE I Can DO BETTER......

Super Eish....

Sigh....

Help me Oh Lord to just trust in YOU,

I promise to trust in you in ALL circumstance......

iN loVinG MeMori3s Of scHooLinG in StK...

Sigh......
Well, the day has finally arrived......
It's not that i will never see my classmates, schoolmates and friends anymore.....
Sigh,
It's just the experience in the same class,
studying together,
learning together,
FELLOWSHIPING TOGETHER......
I will certainly miss the experience.......
VERY VERY MUCH........
It will be a part of my life that i will always remember and treasure.......
WHY??
CAUSE....

1. I really enjoyed this experience very much...... Yup, everyone dreads going to school, but so far this has been the best schoooling experience for me..... I had to drag myself up everyday at 6am from bed to school...... But then i would start to enjoy the day...... I also am very priviledge to have been able to not only befriend so many many amazing friends, but being able to serve alongside them and serve them...... They have been great encouragements to me.....

2. Other than just enjoying this experience, i've also learnt a lot from this experience which has helped me to grow in every aspect of my life..... God put me there for a purpose and reason..... And i believe that purpose was not only to bless but in the midst of it be BLESSED...... I was in form 6 not only to work and serve, but to be nurtured and grow at the same time..... I THANK GOD FOR THAT.....

Well, overall, an enriching and refreshing experience..... Like i said, one i will miss very much.....

TO ALL MY FELLOW FRIENDS, PEERS, CLASSMATES, SCHOOLMATES, TEACHERS.... Thank You for making this form 6 journey worth while...... It wouldn've been the same without you guys...... WISH YOU ALL THE BEST IN LIFE.....
Will keep you all in my prayers......

P.S.. photos are up on facebook.....

ArgHH...

Man.....
Ever made a mistake that you just feel so sourish in the inside???
Sigh.....
Felt so Frus today of MYSELF.....
Felt that i made so many of this mistakes......
Felt i let down some people,
Myself and
ultimately.... GOD!!!
Sigh.....
But God is faithful and merciful and gracious......
He doesn't only forgive me.....
He takes me through a whole new experience to help me grow stronger in HIM.....

To Move on in HIM.....

"Thank you Lord, for this experience.....
Teach me oh Lord, to rise up through these mistakes....."

tiM3 tHat CaTcheZZZZ...

Time do fly......

16 more days till STPM......

So fast, So quick.....

Thank God for the trust and faith He has given me.....

I am not that panicky or stressed out as i thought i would be..

He's teaching me to trust in HIM....

BUt something i 'worry' more about is my 4 remaining days of school with my friends....

Never gonna study with them as such ever again.....

It can be a scary thought.....

ESPECIALLY,

when we question whether we have done enough,

whether we have done all we could to impact......

FATHER, My CRY is that YOU say well done to me, after i leave Form 6 for doing

YOUR WILL....

HappY bIrThdAY mR ChUa....

Last Friday, we had the opportunity to celebrate Mr Chua's birthday..... It was so fun..... Great Planning Jolene.....

Mr Chua is our physics teacher...... He is one of the nicest most patient teacher that I have ever come across........ I havent ever seen him angry before...... BUt he has his ways to control his students..... Hehe...... He is the logest teaching teacher in stk, a total of 35 years of serving in the school...... He is a great teacher..... He tells jokes too to make the classes more amusing..... HE IS SUPER LAME MAN!!!!! Haha...... But in between lessons, he will also talk about life, it's twist and turns, it's ups and downs..... He often advise us about our future, our wife, our career etc...... But what strikes me the most is his ever SMILING FACE...... He definitely brigthens up a person's day with just his unique SMILE.....

Thanks Mr Chua, WE LOVE YOU!!!!!

FattY..... LARD!!!! AHHHH!!!!

MAN...... My little tyre is expanding...... Eish....... MUST MUST DIMINISH IT!!!!!

Do i look fat????

Some people have been telling me that....

Haha....

Well, no point sitting here and complain.....

MUST WORK WORK WORK.....

BURN BURN BURN....

EXERCISE TO KEEP FIT,

TO LOSE THE UNWANTED SEGMENT.....

BY GOD"S STRENGTH.....

Hehe....

bAd-m3aN-ToN fA3eW3lL...

It's been already a week but i just thought of posting some pictures of the farewell.....

Opening Speech by out-going President....

Lee Ming and Shi Feng aka Secretary and Vice president.. People of great assistance to me...

From top left, Yiwan(Ajk perhubungan), AiPing(Juruaudit), Pyng Jyng(Ajk Ting.6), Joey(Vice secretary), Eunice(treasurer) and Lee Ming.... All did a wonderful job....

CheeZE!!!!

Mr Lim and Puan Leong our teacher advisors and New president Shu sien...

Presidents..

The Old Boeard.... People say i look fat in the photo..... AH!!!!!!

New Board....

Group picture.....

Serving as president in a school club was great..... I thank God for the opportunity and also for the people he gave me to help me through this.... May this experience be a mile stone to help me in the future....

aLL aLon3...... t3dDi?

Hehe...... I know i look stupid.......

Sigh.....

Well, I am alone again, with my bro who just flown off yesterday......

Honestly, last year i was excited about the experience of having a whole room to myself and all....

And that i could be the oldest..... I was really excited to face whatever life i was going to have with my bro's absence.....

But little did i know, i missed him so much last year....

Suddenly there wasn't any shadow i could hide in......

Suddenly my room seemed so empty......

Suddenly my life felt funny and weird.......

YES..... I ADMIT IT!!!!! I DID MISS HIM LIKE MAD!!!!!! I COULDN't WAIT HIS RETURN.......

But through the days he wasnt there, i learnt so much......

The biggest lesson was to stand up on my feet on my solid ground which is CHRIST.....

The past 4 months was amazing with my bro......

Although i had to share him with so many people..... HAHA..... But i dont mind......

We had our times together talking, playing, hitting one another.......

I really enjoyed it.....

God indeed took our relationship to another level......

I have never leaned on him so much before.......

NOw, He's gone back to ENGLAnD..... AHHHH......

DUH, I miss him, and i ain't afraid to say it ok, JIT!!!!

I will always miss him, it's a brother thing..... Hehe........

God bLEss Bro..........

Ar3 W3 tHanKinG GoD?

'Ask and Ye shall receive'

Yup, very true, but are we just asking, receiving, enjoying and loving the gifts and blessings God has for us without thanking HIM???

Luke 17: 11-19

"While Jesus was on his way to Jerusalem, he was going through the area between Samaria and Galilee.

As he came into a small town, ten men who had a skin disease met him there. They did not come close to Jesus, but called to him,'Jesus! Master! Have mercy on us!'

When Jesus saw the men, he said,'Go and show yourselves to the priests.' As the ten men were going, they were healed.

When one of them saw that he was healed, he went back to Jesus, praising God in a loud voice.

Then he bowed down at Jesus' feet and thanked him. (and this man was a Samaritan)

Jesus said,'Werent ten men healed? Where are the other nine?

Is this Samaritan the only one who came back to thank God?'

Then Jesus said to him,'Stand up and go on your way.You were healed because you believed.'

I've learnt a lot from this story, but what i would like to draw attention to is the Gratitude and thanksgiving heart of the Samaritan man...

This is something i've just suddenly been thinking about myself... Thanksgiving....

Am i thankful for the gifts God has given me?

Am I content of all the blessings He has showered on me?

Am i letting the craving desires of my heart blind me from the abundance i already have?

Am i just pursuing new things and more things without appreciating the now things GOd has blessed me with?

Hmmmm, I wonder and ponder...... The passage above is preached mainly to myself, I just need to step back at times and count my blessings.... I need to and want to appreciate everything around, family, friends, comforts, discomforts, my surroundings.......

Someone once said that the minute we complain, we should be thankful for something to complain about, rather than people who do not even have anything......

Well, I know this post a bit messed up, not in order, but it's my heart that i wanna share out....

I promise you Lord, that i would be more appreciative of all that you've given me......

I PRAISE YOU AND ADORE YOU!!!!!

mArriAge..... wEddIngs.... COOL!!!!

YipPee.....
No paper for tomorrow.....
Really thank God for being with me throughout the exam......
I learnt true trust in the Lord is surrender fully, and DUN WORRY.......

Anyway, it's been 2 weddings for a week....... And let me tell you...... IT"S SO COOL!!!!!!
Man.... I Love weddings....... It really makes me so thrilled...... Especially if the newly weds people are close to me.......
Thanks guys for making me a part of your weddings and your lives......

I've got a lot to say about weddings..... But maybe not this time...... But what i wanna say is:

"GUY's can CRY!!!!! Out of fear, sadness or Joy...... TRUE MAN CRY........ WHY?? Because they know how to be human......... I totally dont agree to saying man cant tear only can bleed..... That's just so fake......"

Wh3n iT'z All b33n sAiD @nd Don3...

Well, Commissioning..... It finally came......
To be honest, it's a relief..... And it didnt turn out as bad as it seems....
All my closer friends would know what a struggle i've been going through preparing myself each week for comissioning and finding out that week itself that it has been postponed.....
Leaving the team for me is hard...... Very hard.......
I've said it before, if i had my own choice, i would continue..... But there are times in life when things has reached it's season, it is just time to drop it and LET GO......
Urghh.... How i dislike hearing that word..... Hehe......
But i thank God that everytime we're called out of something, it just doesnt end there,
God calls us into something more..... Just as Winter has to come before the summer and the darkness before the dawn, so also, God has prepared something much greater for us all when we've finished and passed a season.......

Well, servin in the team was great, from music coordinator to vice president and to president.....
I can only sum it as such...... God's grace was sufficient for me....... Being elected as a leader in form 4 has already been an honour, an opportunity i really really thank God for as i felt i didnt deserve the opportunity.... And each year, he took me higher not to lift me up, but i believed through all these experience i have been humbled....... It was never been easy, there were hard times, there were times i cried, but in all those times, i never regretted a moment serving in the team...... What sustained me to carry on was my love for God and my love for the peoples, Yfers......

To my team:
Thanks for being a great support, i repeat what i said to you guys...... You guys arent a perfect team, but i cant ask for better....... It was my honour to serve alongside you guys...... Sorry if there has been any offence I've made, and now you've seen the fiercer side of Paulus too...... BUt I will let you guys know that i really trully love you guys.......

For those who are continuing,
I pray God will raise you up higher and higher in Him to become mighty spiritual leaders for Christ..... Love, serve, care and give to the Yfers,develope a love for people, just as Christ did....... Please listen to Wei wey and support her as much as you've supported me..... Submit to one another...... Be open with one another and grow together..... Never fear confrontation, but approach it with love and grace..... Read the Word of God, grow in Love with it, it is your fuel to carry on.... Let everything you do be unto the Lord and His kingdom...... I am always opened for you guys to approach me for assistance...... I would gladly help......

For those who stepped down with me,
Leading doesnt end here...... The lord has something in store for us..... Trust Him that he will lead you by the hand...... In all that the Lord has for us, May we do it to the best of our efforts..... I too am praying for you guys to be strong in the Lord and never stop growing in Him.....

For the new guys,
YOu guys can do it, i believe in you and so does GOd...... As hand picked by God dont doubt the decision or yourself..... Trust the Lord and he will direct your leadership path.... Never cease growing in Him..... Do not let the expectations of man pressure and crush and control you, but let the will of God be your ultimate strive...... Seek wise counsel and have strong accountability partners, you need them to help you in this journey, no leader walks alone....... I am praying for you guys and also extend my hand to you......

To the all my dearest brothers and sisters, da Yfers,
Well, I am now an ordinary yfer..... Hope i will be more approachable..... Though my role in the committee has ended, my role to serve, love and care for you guys are for life..... Hehe..... So dont think you can get away eeasily with me..... Hehe......

LORD I'M AMAZED BY YOU.......

HOW YOU LOVE ME..........

dE HoLzz ^_^

Though it lasted only a week, I thank God for the great holiday...

Well It was one of the first holidays i had to study.... Haha..... I thank GOd for giving me the ability to do so.......

Anyway, 3 main things happened during the holidays.....

Firstly was my Cherating trip...... It was great, the time i had with my family..... Eating was a very important part too...... But i loved most was not rushing for anything during this trip.... We took our time to enjoy each day pass by...... Eating, swimming, laying on the beach, watching the sunrise, taking pictures, sleeping, snoozing, crab catching....... It was simply refreshing.......

That's my aunty and Little Cuzzie....

The sunrise, cool morning wind, and the sound of waves hitting the seashore, One of my favourite ways to spend time with the Lord.....

Wheee......

When i went up, i cried, when He went up the Tree cried....


Tyre swinging, A man's game.....

My Mum.... She wanted to give it a try....

Me Family....

Crap.... Opppsss Sorry.... CRAB!!!!


Siblinghood....

Second, was the Surprise party..... Joy's birthday.... Hehe.... Planned it since Tuesday.... Great job Ma Qian Yi...... I was so excited and worried that day.... But the surprise went great...... Thanks to all who came and contributed..... Thanks for sacrificing, having to squeeze in my little study..... And thanks to some people.... Ahem, Ahem, who violated my rooms privacy.... Haha..... It was a great time anyway....

Group Pic....

Supper.....

Last but not least...... 3 amazing people stayed over at my house..... Calvin from Hong Kong, Puiteh from Myanmar and SunMi from Korea...... It was great knowing them and getting to know them more....... It was indeed sad to see them leave....... It was our pleasure hosting you guys..... GOd BLEss...

crAbzzzz.... Weeeee.....

Call me childish.... But this was one thing i really enjoyed when i was a kid and still do......
Just came back from a refreshing family trip to Cherating, Terengganu...... The beach there was really nice.....
And one thing i really enjoyed when i was by the beach was this,

"Catching Crabs.... Hermit crabs..."

It was really fun..... What made it more fun, there were so many...... I was TRILLED..... Hehe.....

Here are some steps of how i do it.....

Step 1: My attention is caught by these little things.....

Step 2: Observe the numerous variety of crabs running around...

Step 3: Here I go.... One crab, two crab, three crab, four crab...... Man this is easy and FUn.... See them run in terror as a big hand descends to 'rapture' them.....

Step 4 : Take time to admire the spledour of God's creation in crabs....

Step 4: Let them Go.... I wanted to take them home though, but they belong where they belong...

Step 5: Let them run for their lives.....



Lastly, if they dont run, use them for a "higher" purpose.... Hehe.....

What i learnt from the crabs?

~They reveal the beauty of God

~They reveal the beauty and awesomeness of His creation

~They please God and worship Him by being CRABS...

~Some crabs have strong bonds with their home(shells)

~Others have strong bonds with one another, refusing to let one be taken without the other,

WOW, true LOVE!!!!

Note: No crabs were hurt, killed, taken or misplaced during this experdition......

a Fri3nD?

Henri Nuowen(whoever he is)wrote

"The friend who can be silent with us

in a moment of despair or confusion,

who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement,

who can tolerate

not knowing,

not curing,

not healing and

face with us the reality of powerlessness,

THAT

is a FRIEND who cares."

Wow.....
Forgive me Lord, if i failed to be a friend who cares to others....
Give me strength to glorify your name by being a better friend each day.....

Hmmmm....

Yup,
the perfect way to start this post.....
Hmmmmmm.......
It's 12a.m., just came back from another fruitful and challenging session of MLM....
Richard spoke today......
Everytime i go for one of the sessions especially when Richard speaks, i come back challenged and thinking a lot........
Tonights session really puts me in deep thought about my surroundings and especially about
MY LIFE........
I always encourage people to reflect on ones life,
I do it every night before i sleep....
it doesn't only allows the person to review ones own life,
but i believe in the quietness of the night,
when the mind stops thinking so much and prepares for rest,
one can also allow God to reveal himself to you....

Thinking, pondering, reflecting......
Oh Lord, be with me now......
Take me through a time of quiet reflection.....
Reflection to mature the soul,
To live life better and to the fullest for the new dawn ahead.....

ReAcTioNzz....

Nope, Not any chemical reactions..... Hehe, but today i really learnt an amazing and important lesson..... I would call it a revelation......

A certain wise man said to me:

"It is not so much about the right or wrong actions we do, but is the reations that results from the actions that matters more"

When that was said, it suddenly occured to me and made so much sense, the nail really hit....

I've somehow known about this, but it didnt really connect, but today, after an unforgetable experience, it all MADE SENSE, SUPER SENSE......

We as human, homosapiens are imperfect in nature, we do make mistakes in the decisions we make.... My dad always tell me,

NEVER WAIT FOR THE PERFECT DECISION, IT JUST DOESNT EXIST!!!!

Well, it's true, we make right decisions as well as some flawed ones along this journey of life, from time to time, but dont they have their sets of problems and consequences that follows? So then what's up with the wrongs???? Everyone cant stand it, they fear it, they just cant take it, and everyone just wants to avoid it completely.... That to me is PERFECTION......

Then what? Well, our GOd is a God of hope, there's always hope in HIm if we believe, decisions are important, but what's more important then the decisions made, is not whether it's right or wrong, but the decisions that come after we've made the decision, the reactions that follow the actions.......

Pick oneself up everytime we fall, remember it's not the end, but a challenging and amazing beginning.... God gives us chances, and after each action/ decision, what is our reaction???? What is our next decision????

bL3553d B3 dE naM3 of dE LORD....

Blessed be your name
In the land that is plentiful
Where the streams of abundance flow
Blessed be your name

Blessed be your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be your name

Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say...

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name

Blessed be your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's all as it should be
Blessed be your name

Blessed be your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be your name

Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say...
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say Lord,
Blessed be your name

I've been reading about Job lately, and i thought of this song because this is indeed taken from there........ This is one of my favourite songs..... Not really because of the great tune..... But more of because this song always speaks to me.......

JOb is one of my bible heros..... The man God boasts about to Satan..... The man that didnt fail the test of God...... He is simply just amazing....... One of the biggest lessons i learnt from him is his ability to submit, love and trust God to let go everything into His hands.....
Though i know of this story and lessons for a long time already, just this few days, during my devotion what really strikes me is
DYING......
I do no fear death for myself more than for my love ones......
Job had his entire family wiped out... And yet He praised the Lord, Yes he did grieve for his family,
BUt still HE PRAISED THE LORD!!!

I cant imagine and am so scared to imagine the lost of my loved one(family, friends)...... The question is can i still praise the Lord even if they are taken from me>??? Will i be as strong as Job?????
My Answer for now,
is NO!!!!!
I wont be as strong as Job and it will be so so so hard for me to accept and get over it...... Sigh, but what i can assure is that I pray that God will take me to that stage....... By God's grace He will......

Our life starts living whwn we Let Go..... And Let God.....

MYPG.....

Whew, a tiring but very fruitful day....

Am feeling both relieved that is over but then some what disappointed also that it's over..... Just do wish it could last longer.....
We had an amazing time of sharing, worshiping, feet-washing, listening to God's Word and most importantly PRayEr,(It was a prayer gathering after all.... Anyway, I thank God for being with us.... His presence was real and present.... And He guided our days program......

Well, I had a great time being an usher, getting to know new people, working together with different people and running around......
To all my ushers, it was my priveledge to serve with you guys..... Seriously........ You guys were just great and awesome...... And also to all my leaders, thanks for leading and serving the rest of the ushers....... Thanks for helping me to coordinate and making my job easier and fun..... And to my advisors, thanks for all the guidance and help, i definite would not be able to do any of these without you guys directing.......

I enjoyed the day, but the things that i enjoyed the most are
¬The procession..... Man, the music was really good, and the flag barrers made the atmosphere all the more grand, exciting, majestic and simply lovely, made me wanna cry..... What a way to start the prayer gathering....
¬Seeing people from different places and different language coming as one to cry out to the Lord..... This is indeed one of my hearts cry and passion....... It warms my heart everytime when i see brothers and sisters coming together to pray, worship and connect with God......
¬Connecting with people and making them feel at home is another of my passions.... Today, as head of ushers, i got to do that the whole day..... It just beings me an unspeakable joy that supplies me strength to smile and love and serve them the whole day...... Working with the ushers of my church and different youth groups was also just simple amazing...... I pray our partnership will never end......

What ever happened today, i thank God and praise Him, it was indeed a great day, one that the Lord has made..... One that has made HISTORY in beloved Malaysia....... One that will leave a legacy in my life......

I LOVE TO BE A KLUANGITE,
I LOVE TO BE A MALAYSIAN......
God BLess Malaysia.....

cHeMi5tRy...

Yup, Have been a another long holiday away from my blog......

Well, what's been going on is that I've been learning to study.....

I thank God by God's His grace that he has helped me to learn to study and really get it.....

I've been literally burning mid-night oil...... Hehe....

I thank God that whenever i feel so tired and lazy, somehow i call on His name and then i feel stronger to tackle studies......

I just know He's helping me each day to build me stronger and stronger till i finally come face to face to tackle STPM....

Speaking about studies, we've just gone in the chapter Organic chemistry...... Somehow i've always enjoyed this the most in all the chapters in Chemistry..... Though there's really a lot to memorize, but I'm working at it.....

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It's just simply amazing how there all work around.....So complex yet amazing...... Many times we use the universe as an illustration about how amazing God is, but then many times all we need to do is look under a microscope.... Seeing the complex micro life also proves that an amazing creator exists......

mOvINg oN....

Dearest Kai Xian, Engina, Hui Mun, Boon and Cheng Yee......

Thank you guys for everything..... I do wonder how life would be like without you guys.... And you know what? I just know that life without you guys would not be life at all.... And i thank GOd so much for all of you..... Cause He knew that i would need you guys by me along the way..... Each of you have helped me through different areas of my life.... Especially for the past year in STK as my seniors....... It has been a priveledge being called your junior..... But apart form just caring for me as a junior, you've also helped me so much as big brothers to a younger one.....

Saying goodbye is always hard for me.... Very hard... In fact i can say i hate it...... But still, it's a part of life we all have to face and go through..... I pray that our relationship will still grow and be sustained in Christ though we wont be able to see each other as frequent anymore..... Sigh, I am going to miss you all so so much......

I pray that God will guide you each step of the way as you will be moving into a whole new phase of life..... LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH.....