Pearl Harbour....Wow!!!

I just watched this show yesterday with my family.... My comment on this show??? BEAUTIFULLY AMAZING..... It's my fourth time watching it...... Or izzit third?..... Hmmm.... Well, anyway, I dont get tired of watching it man..... The graphics and all were really really good.... Plus the action.... Man...... But other than all those stated above, and also how handsome Danny(One of the actors) is, the story itself was also exciting, meaningful and inspiring.... It makes me wanna cry while watching it...... Some of the things I've learnt is the courage the Americans had to face the terrible situation there were in..... They faced it together...... Everyone had their part to play...... MY heros were actually the nurses....... Anyway, I also learnt that we should be always on guard..... We never know what might happen at anytime..... BUt the thing that touched and inspires me most is standing up for one another...... Even if it means giving up your life...... Danny I believe was a great friend...... He died so that his friend might live..... AHHhhhhhh!!!!! My desire is to be like that...... Like the bible says that 'no greater love than to lay down ones life for a friend'..... That was what Jesus did for us all.....Thank YOu Jesus..... Well, I wanna watch the show again..... Hehe.....Just dont be surprise if i cry during the show......

Har?

Sigh...Feeling kinda down-ish(If ever such word exists).....
Been doing a lot of thinking and thinking
for a long long time.....
I've changed,
both in a good way and bad....
My perspectives,views,visions,dreams,goals,motives,desires,passions....
Sometimes, I fail to acknowledge those that have turned to the 'dark side',
other times, I just fail to conquer the 'dark side'......
But there are times, I GIve Up.....
Letting the dark side cohabit in me.....
I cry and cry for help to God...
I know so much about.....
I know I'm wrong.....
I wanna change....
Just cant.....
Just fail......
When is it temptation?
When's just little old me?

2 Sports day, a failure and A Messed up Room!!!

Yawn......I got up reluctantly...WHy? COz it was so early.....7pm is early for me nowadays....But....I'm glad I did....I had a whole different experience on Sports Day..... When I went in, I was pretty anxious and 'scared' in a way..... Girls and teachers in that school GLANCE a certain way at guys.....As if we are some weird species to man kind.....BUt actually WE are an IMPORTANT source of 'production' to mankind....Hehe.....(Sori...I'm currently a bit oFF)....ANyway.....The whole sports day was cool.....Everyone from Yf participated really really well....SO very very proud of them...... Anyway...I liked the cheer leading part of every rumah....It was cool....My school doesn't have that....The screaming was SO LOUD and Sharp.... BUt Convent really have sport spirit.....I enjoyed the sports day there.....My dad also found out that one of the convent Maths teacher used to be his schoolmate.....Haha.....Jit was the main cheerer there....Whenever He cheered, people will just stare at us......Haha...He's so cute.....Anyway....Well done to all those in rumah Merah.....But overall, all you girls did awesome....

I went for my undang after that..... I was confident yet scared in a way yet no as confident..... But when I was sitting for it,I thank GOd for keeping me calm and although I was tired,I still could attentively do my undang...I was really excited and cheked again and again.....I was confident that I didnt do as bad.....I anxiously wanted to know my marks......guess what.......

I FAILED!!!!!!

ARghhh!!!! I was just 3 questions away from passing........But I thank God that I didnt do too badly and I wasn't as disappointed about it.......BUt anyway,Sigh.....I have to take it again....

I then went over to THO sports day....It was a different feeling as I entered the school......I missed the school,the teachers,my friends and the life of school....I dont miss studies though...Haha.....I met some old friends there......It was fun.......

Now,to my messed up room......On Friday,I cleared up both my cupboards and drawers......It was tiring....I never knew I had so much junk in my cupboard.....I just didnt feel like doing it but I didit anyway....It was fun after a while....I cleared up cards and the fun part was reading them.....I love reading those cards....SOmetimes just wanna make me cry....I thank you guys for the amazingly encouraging cards that you've given me....I also remember that Yiwan's nick name is ICE......Haha......I'm just so glad I finished tidying my room and my board.....

Picture1: Sorting out my drawers and cupboards

Picture2: My decorated board

HoliDays......Or Not?

It's been about 2 months of school-less life already.... being insuch a situation is both fun and sometimes not..... But so far I am having fun..... Well, not entirely, but there's still fun in it.... The problem with such situations, is that you seem to have soo much time...... It's not a good thing... I fall in that category and I do a lot of procrastination.... And worse still, is after procrastinating, I sometimes I forget all about it...Sigh..... Big muddle head rite? haha I can't agree more....So, I've decided not to do so anymore.....I have a set of stuff I have to do before the Chinese New Year....I pray that Iwill not submit to 'laziness'.....Hmmmm.....

~I have to replant my cactus and make sure there grow beautifully and nicely
and healthily
~I have to wash my favourite pair of shoes
~I need to tidy my table and drawers and my board which is such a mess right
now...
~I need to write a newsletter
~I need to finish of my book
~I need to blog.....Haha...I did it....

Anyway, my four months school-less life goal is to know my God even more.....There are other stuff too...But that will be my first.....

Whew.....

AM BACK....A week earlier.....Hehe....BUt I know you miss me.....Haha....Jokin....Anyway,I just have to write what I've gone through during this period of discipleship training and mission.....It was a great experience....a very very necessary experience too...I gained more than I give.....I really had a wonderful time discovering myself and God.....He really taught me so much which I pray that I will bring back here to live it out.....Will just give a brief report of the happenings.....I decided to not post any pictures because SOME people say my blog too many pictures.....Haha....DOnt mean it in a bad way but the pictures will be up if you come to Yf or church......SO stay tune to that....

Anyway,We(my bro,Ryan,Wei shin,Jean,Gideon and myself) started our journey to Ipoh on the 21st of January.....During the bus trip,I had a really wonderful time talking to Ryan....We shared to one another and through just that sharing,I learnt so much already.....We reached at about 4am......We were picked by Rev Peter Chin who brought us out for supper and then to our 'house'-the church....It was a homy place....BUt we didnt really care....Homy or not,we just wanna sleep becoz we were dead tired...We got up at around 9am plus.....We had a whole day off till night and so Rev Peter took us to the mall.....We had a great time bowling there.....It was fun.....We walked around too.....ONly poor Gid was sick and wanted to sit down and a warm place....We went back and rested a while and played double chess.....At night we had a introduction session with Rev Peter where we introduced ourselves......Then it was bed time..... Nothing much really happened that was unique or exciting....We had sessions everyday...One morning and one afternoon and sometimes in the evening....Each day was a different topic....The first day was about intimacy with God....The second was about contagious witnessing....The Third day which was the most interesting one for us was about Spiritual Warfare and Deliverance....It was a real cool and exciting discussion as Rev Peter told us of his experiences with spiritual attacks....But the last day was the most fruitful of all...It was on Leadership.....It was most applicable to my life not just as a leader but also a christian.....It was like God's direct voice to me......I loved that session the most.....Well,during our free time,we played a lot of double chess,we learnt a new game called Eygptian wars,Ryan composed 'SonGs',we ate,I journaled,We talked and we slept....That was about all.....Ohh,I went out for a day with Jean for a jog....It was refreshing.....We also took over the youth fellowship in Ipoh......One of the nights,we had a Guy to Guy talk.....And there was so much laughing and body piling.....It was fun.....I got to know more of the crazy side of Weishin.......Oh ya....And I thank all those that made my day so super by smsing me Happy Birthday at around 12 am...YOu guys are so sweet....Love you guys so much......The guys here also gila-gila sang a birthday song for me at Ipoh.....Haha.....We made our way on Saturday by bus to Kl and attended GEPC.....We had our last session with Uncle Anba who shared on us about mission and the root of it all.....We then lead their worship session and joined their service......I met some of the people there....They're all so nice people.....After that,Jean,Gid and myself made our way to the bus station and headed for Kluang....BOy was I glad to go back...Miss everyone back here....We reached quite early.....Yosh came and pick us up.......When I got home,I was surprised and shocked and so touched to see 2 gifts on my table......I was like WOW......First one was from my sis.....A Aluminium bottle.....SO nice and sweet of her.....And the other one is a container sort of thing by Andrinna and Joyce.....SO sweet of them.... Thanks ya....Anyway......I talked to my parents for a while and then went to sleep.....That's about all that happened for this Ipoh trip.....
What I've learnt......
~Unless we really know with our whole being God's Love,we cannot have a relationship with him
~We should Love the Giver more than the gift
~Loving God should not be a resposibility,but must come from the heart
~We need to let go of what we fear to lose(by Ry)
~I need to find my identity in Christ and be secured in it for it will help me find my purpose
~We are to Be the good news before being able to share the good news
~GOd made us who we are to show the world who He is
~The Key for the passion of the Lost is PRAYER....
~Evangelism must be the core of a church not just a department
~I REALLY NEED TO SECURE MYSELF IN THE LORD
~Our Heart is deceitful,we are to check it constantly,ensuring the right motive in everything we do
I've learnt much much more than these.....But these have been the Ones that have touched me most......

The next day,Sunday,I was so glad to see you guys....Thanks for the presents and also the wishes.....We left at about 3.15pm to Kota TInggi.....Joining us were Jo and Zhi Howe....I didn't feel very excited about it.....Maybe only a lil.....But when we arrived there,I was worse.....I felt like going home there and then.....We met Pastor Clement who was a pretty nice guy.....He took us out for dinner.....We also joined their family prayer and worship time.....During sharing,I shared to the guys how I felt about this and some of them felt the same way too.....BUt I knew it was all because my motives and attitudes were not right,also,I didnt expect a different kind of stress meeting me.....I wispered a prayer to God for help.....I went to sleep after that.....I was so much better the next day......I thank the Lord for that...When we started painting the house(which was our main job here), I was better....We laughed and painted and laughed somemore.....IT was fun......BUt then,the pastor didnt seem pleased with our work....I'm not saying anything about him in a negative way,but he didnt see the results he wanted......We just have different ways of working and different view points....After that,we worked so much harder that we finished the whole living room by 11p.m......It was tiring and tough but the end result was satisfying.......When Pastor saw,I was glad to see the smile on his face while he kept admiring the work.....Well,nothing much happened except painting and painting and more painting each day....We took 4 days to paint Pastor's house and another 2 days to paint another church member's house......We had a great time sharing and talking 'crap'......It was fun to be with the guys...WE also had our sets of conflicts and 'friction'...It was tough but it was necessary for each of us......All of us have our ups and downs.....If you ask WHy,try paintin and painting and painting for 7 whole days,limited rest,under pressure,sometimes under hot sun......YOu know what I mean.....Well,we went out to JB on Wednesday.....Uncle Victor(one of my dad's old friend) brought us out to have steam boat......IT was the Highlight of the trip,according to Zhihowe,which I agree too....NOt only because of the good food,but because we had a real good rest.....I also 'fell in love' with Uncle Victor's second son.....YI SHENG!!!!He's so sweet,cute and adorable and handsome....He so loving also,He kissed his mum...HOw many kids do that nowadays? He held my hand too.....I just love HIm....I wanna adopt him......Anyway,the other's say that I'm obssesed with him.....HAha.....We also joined Pastor's CG on Thursday......Many really nice AUntie's......ON Friday,we went over to the other church member's house to paint....Gid and Zhi howe keep teasing each other about the 2 pretty girls there......Haha....HOpe you guys dont mind....At night,we helped to pack stuff for the church member's totake home.....It was fun....Anyway,we painted that church member's house for 2 days......They were such nice people.....They keep buying stuff for us to eat.....On Saturday,we went for their youth fellowship....We were so surprised to see a drum set there....All eyes were on Jo when she played...She did great.....We went out for supper with all of them....One of them is a handsome guy.....Ask Jo...She agreed with me for a while......After Saturday,we were already so happy that we didnt have to paint anymore......We so sick of that already.....Mentally tired of it.....Sunday,we attended their church service at a house....My first time at a House Church....Then,Yosh came to pick us with my dad and sisters.....They just love me....Hehe.....We went out for lunch with Pastor and family and Uncle Victor and family...It was my last time seeing YI SHENG......This mission trip was not easy but I some how enjoyed it.....Painting gave me time to reflect on the Lord and myself.....GOd really showed me a lot about myself and Himself.....I also learnt so much by staying with the other 4 guys......Jean,Gid,Tan and Jo......Also learnt from the Pastor....
Unlike the Discipleship training where I learnt through discussion,at Kota Tinggi,I learnt more through experience.......
Thing's I've experienced....
~Love and accept one another despite of how they treat you
~YOu dont have to be a Bossy leader
~Work as a team not alone
~Rely on God's strength
~DO it all unto the Lord and nothing else will really matter except what the Lord says
~Prayer is very very important
~Persevere
~Gratefulness
~Give it Our all In everything
That's about most of the important lesson's I've learnt.......I just have to say That I've never trasured Gideon as Much before......He has been a real pal to me during the whole trip....Caring for me.....We had our conflicts....But I thank God most for GIDEON!!!!I also thank God for the rest of you all...I just want to say that I'm proud of you all.....Of what we've achieved as a team....BY looking at the wall,I just cant believe we actually did that....But Guessed what...We did it.....If I did offend anyone or hurt anyone,I want to say I'm sorry....Hope you forgive your dear leader for not acting full as one....Love you Guys...But mot of all I thank the Lord for giving me this oppotunity.....I've been blessed more than I've blessed.....Thank You Lord.....