Wh3n iT'z All b33n sAiD @nd Don3...

Well, Commissioning..... It finally came......
To be honest, it's a relief..... And it didnt turn out as bad as it seems....
All my closer friends would know what a struggle i've been going through preparing myself each week for comissioning and finding out that week itself that it has been postponed.....
Leaving the team for me is hard...... Very hard.......
I've said it before, if i had my own choice, i would continue..... But there are times in life when things has reached it's season, it is just time to drop it and LET GO......
Urghh.... How i dislike hearing that word..... Hehe......
But i thank God that everytime we're called out of something, it just doesnt end there,
God calls us into something more..... Just as Winter has to come before the summer and the darkness before the dawn, so also, God has prepared something much greater for us all when we've finished and passed a season.......

Well, servin in the team was great, from music coordinator to vice president and to president.....
I can only sum it as such...... God's grace was sufficient for me....... Being elected as a leader in form 4 has already been an honour, an opportunity i really really thank God for as i felt i didnt deserve the opportunity.... And each year, he took me higher not to lift me up, but i believed through all these experience i have been humbled....... It was never been easy, there were hard times, there were times i cried, but in all those times, i never regretted a moment serving in the team...... What sustained me to carry on was my love for God and my love for the peoples, Yfers......

To my team:
Thanks for being a great support, i repeat what i said to you guys...... You guys arent a perfect team, but i cant ask for better....... It was my honour to serve alongside you guys...... Sorry if there has been any offence I've made, and now you've seen the fiercer side of Paulus too...... BUt I will let you guys know that i really trully love you guys.......

For those who are continuing,
I pray God will raise you up higher and higher in Him to become mighty spiritual leaders for Christ..... Love, serve, care and give to the Yfers,develope a love for people, just as Christ did....... Please listen to Wei wey and support her as much as you've supported me..... Submit to one another...... Be open with one another and grow together..... Never fear confrontation, but approach it with love and grace..... Read the Word of God, grow in Love with it, it is your fuel to carry on.... Let everything you do be unto the Lord and His kingdom...... I am always opened for you guys to approach me for assistance...... I would gladly help......

For those who stepped down with me,
Leading doesnt end here...... The lord has something in store for us..... Trust Him that he will lead you by the hand...... In all that the Lord has for us, May we do it to the best of our efforts..... I too am praying for you guys to be strong in the Lord and never stop growing in Him.....

For the new guys,
YOu guys can do it, i believe in you and so does GOd...... As hand picked by God dont doubt the decision or yourself..... Trust the Lord and he will direct your leadership path.... Never cease growing in Him..... Do not let the expectations of man pressure and crush and control you, but let the will of God be your ultimate strive...... Seek wise counsel and have strong accountability partners, you need them to help you in this journey, no leader walks alone....... I am praying for you guys and also extend my hand to you......

To the all my dearest brothers and sisters, da Yfers,
Well, I am now an ordinary yfer..... Hope i will be more approachable..... Though my role in the committee has ended, my role to serve, love and care for you guys are for life..... Hehe..... So dont think you can get away eeasily with me..... Hehe......

LORD I'M AMAZED BY YOU.......

HOW YOU LOVE ME..........

dE HoLzz ^_^

Though it lasted only a week, I thank God for the great holiday...

Well It was one of the first holidays i had to study.... Haha..... I thank GOd for giving me the ability to do so.......

Anyway, 3 main things happened during the holidays.....

Firstly was my Cherating trip...... It was great, the time i had with my family..... Eating was a very important part too...... But i loved most was not rushing for anything during this trip.... We took our time to enjoy each day pass by...... Eating, swimming, laying on the beach, watching the sunrise, taking pictures, sleeping, snoozing, crab catching....... It was simply refreshing.......

That's my aunty and Little Cuzzie....

The sunrise, cool morning wind, and the sound of waves hitting the seashore, One of my favourite ways to spend time with the Lord.....

Wheee......

When i went up, i cried, when He went up the Tree cried....


Tyre swinging, A man's game.....

My Mum.... She wanted to give it a try....

Me Family....

Crap.... Opppsss Sorry.... CRAB!!!!


Siblinghood....

Second, was the Surprise party..... Joy's birthday.... Hehe.... Planned it since Tuesday.... Great job Ma Qian Yi...... I was so excited and worried that day.... But the surprise went great...... Thanks to all who came and contributed..... Thanks for sacrificing, having to squeeze in my little study..... And thanks to some people.... Ahem, Ahem, who violated my rooms privacy.... Haha..... It was a great time anyway....

Group Pic....

Supper.....

Last but not least...... 3 amazing people stayed over at my house..... Calvin from Hong Kong, Puiteh from Myanmar and SunMi from Korea...... It was great knowing them and getting to know them more....... It was indeed sad to see them leave....... It was our pleasure hosting you guys..... GOd BLEss...

crAbzzzz.... Weeeee.....

Call me childish.... But this was one thing i really enjoyed when i was a kid and still do......
Just came back from a refreshing family trip to Cherating, Terengganu...... The beach there was really nice.....
And one thing i really enjoyed when i was by the beach was this,

"Catching Crabs.... Hermit crabs..."

It was really fun..... What made it more fun, there were so many...... I was TRILLED..... Hehe.....

Here are some steps of how i do it.....

Step 1: My attention is caught by these little things.....

Step 2: Observe the numerous variety of crabs running around...

Step 3: Here I go.... One crab, two crab, three crab, four crab...... Man this is easy and FUn.... See them run in terror as a big hand descends to 'rapture' them.....

Step 4 : Take time to admire the spledour of God's creation in crabs....

Step 4: Let them Go.... I wanted to take them home though, but they belong where they belong...

Step 5: Let them run for their lives.....



Lastly, if they dont run, use them for a "higher" purpose.... Hehe.....

What i learnt from the crabs?

~They reveal the beauty of God

~They reveal the beauty and awesomeness of His creation

~They please God and worship Him by being CRABS...

~Some crabs have strong bonds with their home(shells)

~Others have strong bonds with one another, refusing to let one be taken without the other,

WOW, true LOVE!!!!

Note: No crabs were hurt, killed, taken or misplaced during this experdition......

a Fri3nD?

Henri Nuowen(whoever he is)wrote

"The friend who can be silent with us

in a moment of despair or confusion,

who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement,

who can tolerate

not knowing,

not curing,

not healing and

face with us the reality of powerlessness,

THAT

is a FRIEND who cares."

Wow.....
Forgive me Lord, if i failed to be a friend who cares to others....
Give me strength to glorify your name by being a better friend each day.....

Hmmmm....

Yup,
the perfect way to start this post.....
Hmmmmmm.......
It's 12a.m., just came back from another fruitful and challenging session of MLM....
Richard spoke today......
Everytime i go for one of the sessions especially when Richard speaks, i come back challenged and thinking a lot........
Tonights session really puts me in deep thought about my surroundings and especially about
MY LIFE........
I always encourage people to reflect on ones life,
I do it every night before i sleep....
it doesn't only allows the person to review ones own life,
but i believe in the quietness of the night,
when the mind stops thinking so much and prepares for rest,
one can also allow God to reveal himself to you....

Thinking, pondering, reflecting......
Oh Lord, be with me now......
Take me through a time of quiet reflection.....
Reflection to mature the soul,
To live life better and to the fullest for the new dawn ahead.....

ReAcTioNzz....

Nope, Not any chemical reactions..... Hehe, but today i really learnt an amazing and important lesson..... I would call it a revelation......

A certain wise man said to me:

"It is not so much about the right or wrong actions we do, but is the reations that results from the actions that matters more"

When that was said, it suddenly occured to me and made so much sense, the nail really hit....

I've somehow known about this, but it didnt really connect, but today, after an unforgetable experience, it all MADE SENSE, SUPER SENSE......

We as human, homosapiens are imperfect in nature, we do make mistakes in the decisions we make.... My dad always tell me,

NEVER WAIT FOR THE PERFECT DECISION, IT JUST DOESNT EXIST!!!!

Well, it's true, we make right decisions as well as some flawed ones along this journey of life, from time to time, but dont they have their sets of problems and consequences that follows? So then what's up with the wrongs???? Everyone cant stand it, they fear it, they just cant take it, and everyone just wants to avoid it completely.... That to me is PERFECTION......

Then what? Well, our GOd is a God of hope, there's always hope in HIm if we believe, decisions are important, but what's more important then the decisions made, is not whether it's right or wrong, but the decisions that come after we've made the decision, the reactions that follow the actions.......

Pick oneself up everytime we fall, remember it's not the end, but a challenging and amazing beginning.... God gives us chances, and after each action/ decision, what is our reaction???? What is our next decision????