a TRiButE tO mY aH KonG...

The funeral just ended...
It is the last time I will be able to see him in his "shell",

but I praise God for meeting with him,

that now I know,

though it is the last on earth,

It isnt the last at all...

For I will see him again,

some day,

with a smile on his face,

to welcome me HOME....

Some day, Some day....

M SoRRiE...

This might sound weird and all,
But,
I just want to say sorry to everyone...
Here's why,
It's great being back la...
I always look forward to it....
I always look forward to seeing everyone back home,
Hanging out and catching up with you guys is trully something I will never get tired of doing....
Note that when I say no to somethng,
It's not because i dont want to go out with you guys,
it's not because i dont want to go for a Counter Strike game with you guys,
it's not that I have no time for you guys...
Yaya, i know we have to make time,
But please know that I am struggling to be able to make time with everyone...
If I could,
I would always say yes to every invitation you guys give to me...
BUt reality is,
I CANT!!!!
Why?
Well, it's just hard to explain...
So even for this trip,
and for any future times we have,
please do note it is indeed a joy to be able to be around you guys...
I would not miss building a friendship,
But I do do hope you guys will understand too....
That everytime you ask me,
I would try my very very best to go....
And every time i cant make it,
everytime there's a no,
It's because I Trully trully cant...
So,
I just wan to say sorry to those who think i just dont want to give them time...
I ask only for this from you as a friend,
that you help me by understanding and trusting me,
whenever I give a NO.....
Thanks, Love you guys lots...

Failure Vs. FailinG...

Failure in
an exam,
a task,
a competition,
a job,
a mission,
in fulfilling a responsibility,
in accomplishing something...

FAILURE, is hard enough to handle....
But you know what I realized today?

Failure in something,
isn't as bad as
FAILING a person...

Failing
a partner,
your teammates,
your group...

Failing
your parents,
your siblings,
YOur family...

Failing
a friend,
a pal,
a brother,
or sister...

Failing
a person that means a lot to you,
people you love so much,
those closest to your heart...

The Heartache that comes with it,
the pain of not being able to do anything,
and the sore you feel
whenever you just try to do better,
but cant seem to move beyond that...

EVer felt that way before???

a WaLk tO r3m3mB3r...

It was NAtional Day,
And my plan was to just study at Christine's place since I've got the whole house to myself...
I just had a bad week last week...
Was struggling with myself and God and the new environment...
Was feeling "lonely" for the whole week...
And I finally admit was feeling SUPER HOME SICK...
I was better and on the road to recovery that day...

While I was studying though,
an sms came,
and so I went to the beach....
Esther wanted to have some fresh air at the beach...
I saw myself doing a favour for her as Phang Cheng, herself and me went together to Teluk Likas...

Somehow,
I believed God planned that trip for me...
As I walked on the sandy beaches,
it was actually quite a dirty beach...
But then,
AT LEAST THERE's a beach to walk one rite?
Hehe...
While walking,
feeling the sand on my feet,
HEaring the waters splash against the shores,
feeling the sea breeze on your face,
and my favourtie one,
seeing the Sun set beyond the horizon...

I was like WOW...
Wow....
WOW!!!
Thank you Lord for bringing me here...
Somehow I feel closer to you whenever I am here...
Seeing the sun set,
reminds me of YOU looking down on me,
Watching over me...

Though I am going through a rough patch in life...
Thank you for being EMMANUEL,
GOd with us,
GOD with ME...
Keeping me,
Preserving me, Training me,
Growing me
and LOVING ME....

It was indeed a Walk TO REMEMBER
the WONDER<
the Awesome-ness,
and
the BEAUTY
of MY GOD....

I know it might soung late...
But HAPPY BIRTHDAY MALAYSIA!!!!
LOVE YOU MALAYSIA...

Whatever people say about you,
I believe that in CHRIST,
ALL things are possible,
MALAYSIA MESTI BOLEH!!!