Do U tRuLLy?

When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter,

"Simon son of John, do you trully love me more than this?"

"Yes, Lord," he said, "you know I love you."

Jesus said, "Feed my lambs."

John 21:15-17

Seeing many blogs and stuff,
People writing about the new year,

About new year resolutions and stuff...

And there I was again,

thinking hard on what i should write to usher in the new year....

But instead of just oozing my brains for ideas,

I also thought and didnt want to write just for it's sake of writing only....

Last Saturday,

since there was no Ablaze,

we went over to join the Ignite service...

PAstor John spoke today on John 21....

While he shared i could sense it was directly from his heart,

I was really encouraged...

And during the sharing,

it dawned upon me about what I would like to do to kick start my year....

The thing that really spoke to me the most is these few words....

"Do You Love me MORE THAN THIS?"

"Do YOu TRULLY Love me MORE THAN THIS?"

As I begin this new year,

I want to start it by challenging myself about Love,

Do I really Trully LOVe Jesus More than anything?

KaWanKu..

We were in my Uni's aquarium and i was looking at some Fish,

DUH,

What else to look at in an aquarium rite?

Hehe,

Well,

Like i said,

was looking at some fishes,

and then dear Sze ying came tugging my hand,

"Kor Kor Paulus, come come, look look!!!!"

She brought me to one of the tank and this was what i saw....

I was staring at it a while and just before i could think of anything,

Sze Ying:" Look Kor Kor Paulus, they are like Best Friends, giggle giggle giggle!!!"

I laughed and smiled not only because the way she said it was so funny,

but I totally agreed on the picture's message....

I just HAD to take a picture....

Friends, FRIENDS....

It's such a treasure and desire and NEED for all humanity....

Myself personally,

I've looked,

I've searched,

I've craved,

I've done stupid stuff,

for FRIENDS,

to be able to have them...

When i was younger,

it was like life and death...

Companionship was SUper important to me,

till a point where i could DIE...

And many times,

I admit,

that sometimes it happens to me still up to this day...

But more than quatity I look to the QUALITY of a Friendship...

To me,

I always believe friends are not just people you hang out with,

you spend time with,

you do stuff together with,

you share a common interest,

but as much as all mentioned,

is a friend that SHARES his LIFE with me...

These are friends I hold dearly,

so dearly to me...

They are the ones I really am encouraged by...

And honestly speaking,

I would not be able to move on in life without friends like these...

For the past year,

God has really been teaching me about learning to trust in Him,

and at camp,

he reminded me about how I should not be so influenzed and controlled by the desire of friends too much...

I'm learning...

BUt still,

Friends mean so much to me,

And i wont deny it...

It's just how GOd made me,

a guys who desires to

Connect,

Share,

and Go Through Life with....

I thank God for each of YOU!!!!

U tHeRe, U DaRe??

Praise God!!!
Praise Him for another camp...
This is my 7th one so far...
And till now,
I've never regretted going any one of them....
I mean,
people can say it's the same camp over and over again,
but then I always believe it's the attitude behind it,
it's how one approaches the camp...

THis year,
i thank God for the opportunity to be part of the committee...
It was hard work,
but it sure paid off...
I learnt so much,
struggled so much,
and believe that now,
I HAVE COME OUT STRONGER...
God really taught me a lot through this experience,
I was STRECTHED....

But apart from the challenge of preparing the camp this year,
God still challenged me....
He challenged me in many ways but mainly in 2 areas...

Firstly is when Pastor Daniel talked about fitting in,
about not wanting to feel rejected and by succumbing to peer pressure just so we can fit in....
He challenged all of us about how we should not cling on so tightly on the world's acceptance,
but on GOD...
HOnestly, this has been and still is one of the biggest struggles of my life...
I struggle so much to want people to accept me especially in my younger days that many times i dont realize i still do it now...
Sigh,
It's indeed a sad part of my life...
Many times even now,
I still just do things just so i can blend in with those close to me,
even though i dont really like to do those things...
BUt for this whole year,
God has been challenging me to find who i really am....
And be who He made me to be,
camp was an important reminder and confirmation on that...
As much as it is hard to overcome this,
In HIm I can DO ALL THINGS....

The second thing was when Aunty Dorcas prayed for me...
The challenge or Word for me was to bring the presence of GOd with me wherever I go,
and how do we do so?
We bring the presence of God when we learn to FEAR GOD....
My prayer is that more and more I would be able to bring God's presence whever I go to be able to usher his kingdom into places and people who are yet to be touched by HIm....

Overall,
I had loads of fun,
and it was fruitful,
apart from ministry and messages,
another thing i look forward to so much during camp is Friends,
and not just FRiends,
but Brothers and Sisters from all over the country that loves GOd....
To me,
being together with a brother or a sister in Christ just refreshes me....
Not only those from different towns,
but also those from Kluang...
It is just a relationship that gives me such goosebumps that trully is really really dear to me...
And I thank God for making new friends....
I pray we will continue to spur one another up for His Kingdom and HIS SAKE....

aBSence...

Yup, it's been a while since I've updated my blog,
Funny,
have been back over two weeks now,
and some how I cant think of anything to write...

I did mention to myself before that I wont "pressure" myself to write...
If I get something,
I write,
If not,
Dont lor....

To me blogging isn't my best thing and it isnt priority,
Hehe,
Yup,
But will see,
it has been great to be back,
and it's gonna be a great December ahead...

Oh, Lord, take me through it YOUR WAY...

wHAt wOuLD YOu DO?

HAha, i know it's kinda obvious rite?
Just finished my papers today....
WOOHOO!!!!
So i decided to catch a movie with my course mates...
We decided we wanted to watch the latest movie,
and so this was our choice...
I heard some reviews about it already from Gid,
and thought of it as just another movie to relax and enjoy the action and effects and see how Hollywood would imagine the end of the world...
I didnt expect much from the movie,
I went in expecting entertainment,
and left convicted and challenged....

This is one of the best movie's i watched this year....
It wasnt so much about the effects or the plot of the story,
nor is it the action and the excitement of the movie,
but it was the content of the movie,
the MESSAGE it brought to me personally as well as it was bringing to the world....

Personally:

One of the two things that hit me the most during the show is the love of a Father... Countless time during the show, was how the father would do everything he can, even his life to save his child.... Now come to think of it, it was so weird that they didnt show much of the mother's response... Dont get me wrong, i know the depths of a mother's love for the family and her children, but somehow, the father's of the show are highlighted so much that it led me to questioning whether that would be what i would do for my child.... One of the Father's main role in the family is to PROTECT.... That was the role so clearly seen there... I kept asking myself, can i do that too?

I've never always dreamt I would be a father, but then recently, I had this desire to be one and it was pretty strong... And today, seeing how the those father gave their whole self into protecting their family especailly their kids, made me really ponder and challenge myself to reach that level.... Because I know that before I can ever think about starting a family at all, that is a level of love I have to reach, that is a standard i have to follow, it's like GOd the Father, his love was so great, he gave his ALL, his only begotten son to die for us and like him, that is the model i desire to follow...

Can i be that father? I cant answer that, but I can say, that I am on the journey of learning to be one...

Generally:

The whole story I would sum up would be selfish love, or selfless love.... In the movie, everyone wanted to live, reality, who wants to die rite? I know selfish love sounds a bit ridiculous and impossible but i would define it as love that is shown only when you are comfortable... Such love involves loving oneself and those around that are easy.... Such love will never stand when there is trials or hardship, like the movie, love like that was shown when they found out the world was ending, there only loved or did things with love when convenient, and whenever their life was treathened, it was their own lives first before others.... Such isnt true love...

Like in 1 Corinthians 13, love is not selfish... It is selfless.... Regardless of the situation we face, love still exists and never dies if it is selfless... In the movie, everyone showed the selfish love at first but at the end, one man was convicted which led to a twist in the show where it ended with selflessness....

"The moment we stop fighting for one another, it is when we lose our humanity"...

There were a few times when i was so moved by the movie, i wanted to cry but i manage to hold back.... But after this was said, I teared... This was the CLIMAX of the story.... This was the MESSAGE of the movie... Whatever happens, Jesus set an example of true love by dying for us so that we may live...

In the bible it speaks about putting others before one self and that itself can sum up what love really is...

Like the title says, that was the question I asked myself.... What would I do if i were them? For now, I can say that most likely i would have just tried to save my own lives and the others I hold dear to me.... BUt GOd challenged me to dive deeper.... To redefine love in my life... And such love is just impossible, really impossible.....

BUt all things are possible in Christ rite???

Wow, it is a movie i encourage everyone to watch this movie...

It will really really teach you and challenge you....

kNiGht R-I-D-E-R

Oh Man,

Cant seem to get better pics of this...

Sigh, this will have to do...

Dont really do movie or show previews

(that's Gideon's job),

Haha,

Anywayz,

Have been watching Knight Rider series....

Actually didnt think much of it...

I know there was an older version,

but my first time watching was in Jit's house....

It was ok la,

I really loved the car,

but the whole show looked kinda boring,

so didnt bother about it much....

BUt then later I gave it a try....

IT WAS NICE!!!

Hehe....

2 things I love about the movie,

one like I've mentioned,

THE CAR!!!

WOW,

A Mustang wei...

I may not know much about cars,

but I know I would dream and drool over a car like that,

the features of the car itself already is a magnet to all guys around...

I love the way it transforms although it reminds me a lot about TRANSFORMERS...

Hehe...

Exactly the same transformation style...

BUt the second thing I love is the advance High-tech things they do...

Seeing how the agents hack into computer systems,

into security cameras,

into networks,

phone lines,

and how they use Artificial Intelligence to crack cases....

To me,

IT's SO COOL....

HAha....

To some extend i wish i was a hacker...

YOu sEE tHE dEPtHs Of mY HEaRt aNd YOu LOvE mE tHE samE...

INDESCRIBABLE

Chris Tomlin

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creations revealing your majesty
From the colours of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable;
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable;
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and give source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

Indescribable, uncontainable;
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable;
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Indescribable, uncontainable;
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

I really love this song,
it's one of my favourite songs....
I so happen to be listening to it last night during devotion...
This time I was listening to a different version...
It was by Passion...
And some how suddenly I heard something, and I realized something....
GOd was showing and telling me something...
Indescribable God,
He is indeed indescribable but
not only He made the sun, moon and stars,
not only becaused He created the seas and the mountains,
not only because He created every season summer, spring, autumn and winter,
not only becasue He was the Creator of all things,
but this time I saw something more than all that,
why He is INdescribable,
is because
HE LOVES US just the same
even though He knows the
DEPTHS of our HEARTS....

When I heard that,
I was like WOW,
Even though you know how evil we can be
Even though you know how we as your creation will betray you
Even though you know how we cling a lot to our selfish desires
Even though you know how we will fail you
Even though you know so much about who we are,
knowing how much we do not deserve You,
You still by your grace and mercy,
LOVE US STILL THE SAME....

Think of it,
how many of us after,
knowing all the dark secrets and shocking truths about a friend,
after seeing and knowing the depths our their hearts
can still love them,
holding nothing back from them?
But loving them STILL THE SAME?
I CANT...

"Incomparable, unchangeable,
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same;
You are amazing God,
You are amazing God.."

Indeed Lord,
You are amazing GOd,
Thank YOU for loving me just the SAME even by knowing the DEPTHS of my HEART..
You are trully Amazing...